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2012-01-26T18:09:00.000+08:00

saya rasa sungguh tertekan...

kbye

BAJU KURUNG MAMA

2012-01-17T18:01:00.002+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye guys.

How's your day? Hehehe...semangat pulak pergi ke kelas hari nih. Seronok. ehehe...nak cerita sikit pasal baju kurung mama. cam sedeyh je bunyi tajuk nih. ekceli, tak de la sedih pown. okok. aku sorang je anak pompuan mama. so kira manja la ngan mama kan. cam besa la. mama selalu bagi aku baju dia yang lama2. kira tak leh nak muat lagi ngan 'slim' fit dia tu. baju mama banyak yang cam baru sebab dia banyak baju n banyak mmg baru2. ngehehe. bila dia takleh nak muat lagi, aku yang ambik. kadang2 kalau mama tak bagi pown, aku mintak je kat dia. bukan sebab aku takda baju (especially baju kurung), tapi sebab aku suka ambik baju mama and pakai. best la jugak. walopun secara sebenarnya la kan, saiz aku ngan saiz mama memang berbeza. aku kecik dan kontot. nait berat pown masih kecik jugak. mama berisi ckit and tinggi lagi dari aku. so technically baju mama semuanya panjang2...dan besar. ahahaha. so bila aku pakai len je ropenye.

mungkin kazen mazen aku yang len salu jugak dapat benda2 camni. salunya anak2 perempuan la. anak lelaki erm....jarang kot. korang pown mesti pernah kan? aku cam before nih, terlalu kecik sanghat jadi aku cam jeles je bila kazen mazen semuanya dapat pakai baju mak diorang. hukhukhuk. kalau aku pakai gak kena pakai tali pinggang kat kain and kena lipat 5-6 kali. hadoheh!! seronok kan dapat pakai baju mama??

before masuk U, masa aku sekolah, aku sempat mintak dua tiga pasang baju mama. saja je nak mintak. simpan lam almari walopun tak pakai pown. tapi aku suka mintak dan simpan (apakejadahnya??). so sekarang, masa kat U, aku ada beberapa baju mama yang ada lam almari. aku bawak beberapa baju mama ke kampus untuk pakai. suka jugak seyh pakai. memangla tak fit to body ape semua, tapi seriously, everytime pakai baju kurung mama aku rasa seronok and rasa cam mama lagi dekat ngan aku. lebih dekat daripada biasa (amboi rembat tagline hot.fm pulak). bukan baju kurung mama je, kadang2 baju sejuk dan baju tshirt ayah pun aku guna. ngehehe. panggillah aku anak manja ke apa. tapi itu cara aku menghargai mak ayah aku kayh.

selalunya bila aku pakai, walaupun baju tuh cam besar daripada aku nih, aku tak malu and aku makin bersemangat. contohnya hari nih. aku pakai tudung yang aku pinjam daripada mama, baju kurung greyish-white berbunga indigo yang mama bagi sebelum semester nih and aku pakai stoking yang rasanya bapak aku punya kot sebab aku salah ambik stoking. ehehe. seronok dan makin bersemangat bila belajar. AKU SERIUS NIH!

jadi kepada korang suma kat dunia nyata sana, kalau mak korang bagi baju hand-me-down kat korang, baju diorang zaman dulu2, korang jangan lah mengeluh kata diorang nih tak best sebab tak bagi baju baru. aku rasa semua mak bapak teringin nak tengok anak2 dia sekali sekala pakai baju diorang. walupon ko sanggup pakai sepasang je. sebab sebenarnya feeling pakai baju diorang nih teramat-lah best.

korang mesti perasan kan, kalau di sarawak nih, kat semenanjung tak tau la kan, kalau berlakunya kematian terutamanya dalam ahli keluarga, mesti baju2 yang meninggal tu akan dibahagi2kan kepada ahli keluarga. contohnya masa pak nek aku meniggal (ayah kepada ayah aku), anak lelaki semua diberi kain pelikat pak nek aku tuh. ada yang dapat baju melayu dia (mana2 yang muat la) dan ada jugak yang volunteer untuk ambik buku2 lama dia termasuklah al-quran yang memang tahap koleksi muzium punya. masa nih la barang2 khazanah harta karun mak bapak korang jadi teramat berharga. kalau korang tak rasa terdetik sayang kat barang2 tu memang aku tak tau nak cakap apa la.

jadi pesanan aku kat korang, yang masih ada mak bapak, yang masih ada keluarga. kalau mak bapak bagi kita barang diorang bukan bermaksud diorang sengkek sangat sampai tak nak bagi baju baru. diorang bagi harta yang berharga buat korang supaya korang takkan lupakan diorang masa diorang dah tak da nanti. simpan barang2 istimewa diorang. bila rindu leh la kita pegang.

wassalamualaikum =)

p/s: nak call mama dan bapak malam nih. diorang mesti rindu aku seyh. ehhe.

31.12.2011 PART 1

2011-12-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye guys. ehe...

31.12.2011, 3.00pm - Outing with my beloved cousin and new sister, Are-a & Eyna at K-Box embassy The Spring. Owh My ALLAH, thanks a lot guys. That really helps me released all the tense. Ahahaha. seriously gonna do it again!

Bought new long sleeves shirts and a set of bathing towels. Another favorite activity - SHOPPING!!!

PEREMPUAN PUNYA PERASAAN

2011-12-19T01:32:00.001+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye ya'all...

dan hye awak. xtau la kalau bace pown kan...so whatever.

Hari nih nak bagitau sal perasaan perempuan sikit la.

Hati seorang perempuan itu sungguh halus. Lembut walaupun perangainya kasar. Ada malu walaupun nampak berani dan yakin. Suara hatinya sukar didengari walaupun suara luarannya kedengaran lantang. Orang dulu-dulu selalu nasihatkan kat kita, jaga hati seorang wanita, sebab hati wanita nih cepat rapuh, kena jaga, sebab mudah terluka. Ada benarnya orang pesan macam tu.

Apabila seorang perempuan mulai suka pada seseorang, dia hanya akan berdiam diri. Menunggu orang yang disukainya itu untuk meluahkan apa yang dia rasakan terlebih dahulu. Kenapa selalunya perempuan akan buat macam tu? Sebab diorang nih, makhluk yang pemalu. Malu sebab ehem...tak manis kalau perempuan yang mula dulu takut nanti dipanggil perigi mencari timba. Malu sebab takut nanti, lelaki itu tidak mempunyai perasaan yang sama sepertinya. Mungkin nanti dia di'tolak'. Malu sebab nanti lelaki tu bagitau kat orang lain jaja cerita yang perempuan tu suka kat dia. Macam hidung tak mancung, pipi tersorong2 pulak. Tapi, kadang-kadang perempuan masih tetap akan bagitau orang yang dia sukai tentang perasaannya. Malu pun, kena bagitau. Sebab takut tak sempat bagitau atau takut nanti diambil orang. Ataupun sekadar hanya memberitahu insan yang dia sayangi supaya dia tahu perasaannya.

Wahai lelaki, andai ada perempuan yang meluahkan perasaannya kepadamu, ucapkanlah TERIMA KASIH kepadanya. Cukup sekadar terima kasih. Hargailah keberaniannya yang menolak segala keraguannya untuk memberitahu kamu bahawa dia sukakanmu. Hargailah perasaannya. Hargailah usahanya. Cukup dengan Terima Kasih. Ketakutannya akan reda. Harus kamu tahu, ada perempuan yang hanya ingin kamu tahu, dan ingin kamu katakan kepadanya andai kamu juga mempunyai perasaan yang sama dengannya. Bukan untuk berpacaran, bukan untuk memadu kasih tanpa ikatan halal dan sah, bukan juga untuk meminta lebih daripada itu. (CHEY...BERMADAH SENDIRIAN AKU NIH KAN??)

If A Girl Says The Three Magic Word

Do not make a fool out of her,

She had tried her best to gather all the guts that she has to tell you her feelings. Kena kat perempuan yang kurang self-esteem, nanti kalau dia jumpa orang baru dia tak brani nak bagitau lagi karang.

Do not change the topic without acknowledging her feelings,

After all that she had tried, you just change the topic without saying a simple Thank You will be a humiliation for her.

Do not say you did not hear anything or pretend you don't understand her,

A girl's heart if easily hurt, she gathered her courage to tell you this important thing, just say Thank You. Show her you heard her and you are thankful she likes you even when you do not share her feelings. Takkan benda senang camtu tak pandai nak pikey kot?

Do not treat her differently,

Typical guys always did this. STUPID!! You are friends, treat her like friends. If you've never known her before, at least say 'hi' to her. That's the least that you can do after u reject her.

Do not ignore her.

Another stupid thing guys did. DO NOT ignore her. This will further humiliate her. Down goes with her confidence and you'll definitely hurt her. UNLESS she ignores you then you need to find a way to say sorry.

There's nothing wrong with saying that you do not share the same feelings, but at least let her know that she has been heard and do not act so cocky and ignorant towards other people's feelings. Most girls will understand. Be friends with them. That'll lessen their hurt.

Just say 2 simple word, THANK YOU.

WASSALAMUALAIKUM.

p/s: ok...nampak serabut je post nih. tak pe...nanti2 pikey balik. Siang karang nak drive lagi hadoi! tak tido lagi nih.

hari hujan...sedih gak wooo....hati ni la yang sedih...

AKU KENA SABAR

2011-12-13T17:55:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum...hye guys...

penat...rasanya perkataan tu la yang paling banyak dikeluarkan lubang mulut nih sepanjang dua minggu ni. penat sangat2 bila mesyuarat tak tentu masa...diorang nih ingat aku apa ha? okok...tak baik mengeluh...sakit pinggang ngan sakit tulang belakang dah makin teruk dah...ntah napa...adoi. aku sebeanrnya pening, dan tertekan asngat2. banyak kerja nak kena buat. tapi hati harus bersabar. orang lain tengok senang jadi aku kot. tu yang diorang tak kesah sangat.

mesyuarat bertindih2...rasa lebih kurang cam wakil rakyat ke...ahli perniagaan ke, ade gak. ngehehe...experience awal kot. amin2....bukan wakil rakyat tu...tapi ahli perniagaan. tolong amin2kan jugak ye.

plan cam nak keluar jenjalan je esok. nak g pantai tapi nampkanya tak dapat sebab jauh sangat dari campus. so maybe g karoks je le yang mampu kot. tgk la camna.

aku sebenarnya nak luarkan something la...ada beberapa sebenarnya. salah satunya...aku teramat geram sebab kena tukar topik untuk presentation BEL312 Isnin lepas. aku mulanya pilih TH Plantation, pastu bila tengok tak da orang amik Parkson Holdings, terpikat lak. so aku ambik keputusan tukar ke parkson holdings. sebenarnya mula tu aku plan nak amik Jabatan Muzium Sarawak je. tapi tak dapat sebab requirements nak company...and kena tersenarai dalam KLSE. hadoh2! tukar...

then, bila nak buat presentation Isnin tu, kena pulak sama topik ngan kawan sorang lagi. Jadi bila dah consult ngan Miss, aku yang kena tukar...aku redha sebab memang separuh daripada kesilapan aku sendiri jugak. then aku tak tau nak buat apa dah...last2 malam tadi aku terpikey nak buat sal Naim Holdings aje...so aku dah buat keputusan...presentation cuba teka...cuba teka...hari Rabu. haiseyh!!! then kejap tadi kawan aku bagitau pulak dia buat Naim Holdings...haiseyh...tak suka2....aku tak nak tukar lagi dah...penat weyh fikir panjang! nak tau apa dia cakap??? "u tukarla...u tak susah kalau tukar.senang je you." POOORAHH!!! senang ko cakap? cube ko masuk kasut aku saiz berapa nih! cuba test try camna rasanya. haiseyh.

bahaya....rumpong lappy aku!

so...bila aku pikey2 balik...takpa...aku buat biar lain daripada yang lain. slides insya-ALLAH dah mantap...tukar topik benda sama...dan aku akhirnya kekal ngan TH Plantation yang kebanyakan orang tak tau tentang kewujudan depa nih. ekceli, aku bangga sebab Board of Directors depa mmg orang Melayu Muslim...so...dalam banyak2 projek yang lain jarang kot nak tengok BOD yang Melayu Muslim. Alhamdulillah. Buat projek ni sedikit sebanyak ngajar aku berlajar bersedia untuk menempuh apa sahaja yang mungkin menyulitkan hidup. Kena banyak bersabar dan berusaha lebih. Mana tau, bila kena timpa masalah cam nih, aku boleh buat yang lebih baik daripada kalau aku buat yang lain, kan?

So, aku takkan mengeluh. sebab mengeluh itu sifat orang yang malas untuk memperbaiki diri...kot la. taktau sangat. tapi aku sedang dalam proses belajar untuk tidak mengeluh. Insya-ALLAH, doakan aku ye.

yang kedua pulak, aku nak share adalah kekecewaan aku...sedikit la...tak banyak pun kecewa nya. engehehe...

'abg korea' tak datang kelas pulak isnin lepas...huhu...ok...aku mula rasa tak selesa pulak nak jumpa dia especially lepas aku bagitau dia perasaan aku...cheywah!! drama nye bunyi! tapi yes, aku cam malu sebab aku dapat rasakan dia mungkin tak share perasaan yang sama cam aku.

aku redha...tak apa...jodoh jauh lagi kot. kena sabar dan berusaha cari yang baik2.

apapun, insya-ALLAH esok jumpa dia lagi. sebab esok kelas BEL dan ada mesyuarat. insya-ALLAH aku g jugak.ahahaha.kalau tak tak tau la...

ok...tu je...nanti aku update lagi.ehehe...

wassalamualaikum

p/s: sapa la pasang lagu jiwang kapak kat library nih??? tapi best gak...ada lagu latar...cun ngan perasaan skarang nih. AHAHAHAK.

KEEPING ME SMILING...THE WHOLE DAY

2011-12-11T21:53:00.001+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye guys.

I bet if you've read my previous posts u'll understand why I named this post today as it is now.

Yes, i think i do have a crush or maybe more than that to this friend of mine. From previous experiences, the usual crush will only lasts for a short period of time, and usually I won't be so sure as this. I've only felt this way once. That 'once' I'm saying is almost stepping into the fifth year. Now, I've got the same feeling...like what i felt then. Is it possible this could ever happen again?

I hope this time, I wouldn't get hurt for feeling this. But I can't say for sure though. I really can't. I am not sure how he felt towards me. But this time, unlike the first time I did feel this, I am sure to be more prepared...prepared of rejection, and prepared to be more matured. Instead of wanting a relationship, I only want him to know how i felt. Nothing more, nothing less. Keeping this friendship is much more important. Plus, i don't think I would want to get involved unless we're engaged. Seeing the situation now, the later isn't something that would come anytime soon. Getting to know each other is better rather than to be involved in something that would turn our feelings sour to each other.

Whatever it is, I am sure that I am in love. Even if it isn't that LOVE yet. It's something that made my heart sings the whole day and praying that this is real.

Tonight i kept on playing these songs...I'd like to share it with you guys. Enjoy the songs!

YOU GOT ME

You're stuck on me
and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though
I try to hide, I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe, you got me, yeah
You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours
it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I can't imagine what it'd be like
Livin each day in this life, without you.
Without you.

One look from you I know you understand
This mess we're in
you know is just so out of hand.

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I hope we always feel this way
I know we will
and in my heart I know that
you'll always stay

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do
Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it musIt's everything that I've been dreaming of.t be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.
Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.

FALLIN' FOR YOU

I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I'm fallin' for you

p/s: ~~rindu~~ pulak nak jumpa...insya-ALLAH esok jumpa...nak bagitau ke tak???

Bila Hati Gembira...

2011-12-11T02:15:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum...hye korang..

sekali lagi...nak update. ingtkan nak update Jumaat lepas tapi balik jalan2 kepenatan pulak tambah ngan line yang memang 'bagus' kat asrama...balik2 hari nih, sakit belakang pulak...tapi jalan jugak sebab ada benda nak dibeli. anyways, sebelum aku lari dari punca idea sebenar aku nih, baik aku teruskan.

JUMAAT

Pagi tu kelas AIS...aku g ngan tidak bermaya sebab sakit perut n rasa nak muntah. Sepanjang minggu aku makan satu meal sehari tanpa banyak makanan ringan atau tambahan. So, aku paham jugakla. Alhamdulillah, turun 1 kg. okok...sambung2. so sakit perut sangat. tapi, nak jalan2 tengahari tuh.so gagahkan diri untuk kelas seterusnya. semester nih, aku suka hari jumaat. sebab kelas best. lepas kelas aku mintak tolong kawan aku ato papan notis sekejap. dah tuh, aku baru perasan aku dah lambat nak balik utk solat zuhur n nak kemas untuk keluar petang tu.

adoi!!

actually, the plan for that evening was supposed to be for Wednesday. tapi tukar sebab aku duty untuk kadet bomba. so, aku kenakan baju merah petang tu sebab that is the only blouse that i have then...lupa nak bawak baju jalan2 bila balik isnin tu. aku excited nak kuar petang tu...sebab aku kuar ngan kawan aku n 'abg korea'.

jadi, by 2 kami dah mula gerak dari uitm ke the spring kuching. aku drive...ngahaha...can u believe it???

so, sampai2 spring pulak dah lambat nak tengok wayang Puss in Boots pukul 2.15 ptg. so kami beli tiket utk show pukul 4.15 ptg. then, kami pergi makan kat Manhattan Fish Market. sedap...walaupun harga dia boleh tahan mahal, tapi sekali sekala, takpa la kot.

lepas makan, baru kami tgk cerita Puss in Boots. best...lawak...ngahahaha...rasa cam bebudak lagi la pulak.ahahaha. lebih seronok sebab ada kawan2 temankan.

lepas tgk wayang, aku, biha n 'abg korea' g jenjalan...aku g aussino sebab nak belikan hadiah untuk mama n bapak utk anniversary diorang minggu depan. i got them a set of towels...nampak cute and sweet. then jalan2 pulak ke mph, nak cari ombak rindu. hati berbunga2 sebab 'abg korea' jalan nga kita.ekeke...(perasan nya aku nih)

pastu masuk padini pulak...baju perempuan tak banyak yang menarik perhatian...yang lelaki punya pulak cantek2. tapi memandangkan aku nih perempuan dan aku takda sesapa nak bagi baju camtuh, aku tgk and jalan aje...harharhar...

sebenarnya dala masa berjalan tu, otak ligat berfikir, agaknya patut tak aku bagitau kat seseorang rasa hati nih..?tapi akhirnya, aku cam tak dapat nak bagitau...sedih...tapi tak apa...aku diamkan aje la...seperti selalu...

sebenarnya aku ada termimpi something yang tak baik minggu nih, tapi aku tak nak percaya sangat sebab aku tahu, ALLAH lebih tau daripada aku. baik atau buruk sesuatu kejadian hanya ALLAH yang tahu. aku takut kalau jadi apa2, aku tak sempat nak bagitau orang yang aku sayangi bahawa aku sayangkan diorang. aku nak diorang tahu walaupun diorang mungkin tak sayangkan aku macam aku sayangkan diorang. tapi aku tak tahu macam mana nak bagitau kat diorang. fear of rejection, fear of my own ego, i can't seem to get it out. so i did a will written on a paper. just in case. tapi sebelum aku tutup post kali nih, there's something that i want people to know...and i hope they'll know.

AKU INGIN KAU TAHU...

Aku ingin kau tahu bonda dan ayahanda,

Yang aku berterima kasih atas segala yang kalian lakukan buatku sepanjang hidupku,

Yang aku menghargai senyuman, nasihat, ketawa dan kasih sayang yang telah kalian kongsikan,

Yang aku amat terhutang budi atas setiap pengorbanan dan setiap titis usahamu dalam membesarkanku,

Yang aku memohon ampun atas salah dan silapku,

Yang aku harap aku telah membanggakanmu,

Yang aku harap aku telah capai apa yang kau harap-harapkan,

Yang aku teramat sayangkan kalian, teramat cintakan kalian,

Yang aku doakan kita bertemu kembali di Jannah Allah.

Aku ingin kau tahu saudara-saudaraku,

Yang aku berterima kasih atas kasih sayang yang kalian berikan kepadaku,

Yang aku menghargai setiap nasihat yang kalian berikan,

Yang aku amat bersyukur kita dijadikan saudara,

Yang aku amat berbesar hati kerana kalian bersama-samaku sepanjang hidupku,

Yang aku meminta maaf jika ada perilak dan kata-kataku menyakitkan,

Yang aku sayangkan kalian seperti darah dagingku sendiri.

Aku ingin kau tahu wahai sahabat-sahabatku,

Yang aku amat bersyukur kita dipertemukan,

Yang aku amat berterima kasih atas bantuan dan kasih sayang yang kita kongsi,

Yang aku amat menghargai kehadiran kalian dalam kehidupanku,

Yang aku amat sayangkan kalian seperti saudara-saudaraku,

Yang aku berharap cukup kenangan untuk disimpan untuk kalian ceritakan nanti.

Aku ingin kau tahu wahai insan yang telah memikat hatiku,

Yang aku amat berterima kasih kerana kau berikan senyuman dan tawa kepadaku,

Yang aku amat berterima kasih kerana kau membuatku senang,

Yang aku amat menghargai kehadiranmu,

Yang aku sebenarnya teramat sayang kepadamu,

Yang aku malu untuk memberitahumu,

Yang aku sentiasa berdoa dijodohkan denganmu,

Yang aku sentiasa berdoa kau dipertemukan dengan jodohmu,

Yang aku ingin kau tahu aku masih ingin menjadi sahabatmu,

Yang aku sebenarnya tertanya-tanya jika kau juga merasakan yang sama,

Yang aku tunggu kamu untuk melafazkannya.

AKU INGIN KAU TAHU...BAHAWA AKU TERAMAT CINTA PADA KAMU SEMUA

Wassalam...

p/s: rindu korang sudah...terima kasih awak sebab buat saya tersenyum...saya suka kat awak. tapi nampaknya melafaskan kesukaan itu tak sesuai dilafazkan ketika gemuruh dan ketika di eskalator!!

Bengang sangat!

2011-12-08T17:02:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum

hye guys...

penatnya minggu ni...seriously lebih penat daripada minggu lepas. hari nih habis kelas pukul 4 petang, keluar awal, tapi malangnya kena tunggu sampai pukul 6 untuk jumpa lecturer...kesian jugak nanti lecturer tunggu2. aku jugak yang kena marah karang, tol tak? disebabkan aku penat gila, tensen sangat...aku rasa cam nak enjoy jugak sekali sekala. kuar jalan2. especially ngan 'abg. korea' tak gitu...? aku ngan dia kawan je...takda apa2. bukannya akan ada apa2 peluang pown kan...sapalah aku nih. (eh...eh...lari dari topik pulak.bukan aku ngah bengang tadi ke?

konpem...aku tak macam nih...kan?

okok...aku banyak rasa cam nak bengang je minggu nih. penat siot...(eh...eh...tak baik guna perkataan tu kan???) banyak kerja aku leh handle...tapi yang len2? alamak...tak leh pulak.

minggu nih aku AGM.so kindda busy bila aku kena pastikan semuanya berjalan ngan lancar. tapi sayangnya walaupun lancar aku rasa cam ada kekurangan je AGM kali nih. kecewa gak la. lebih2 lagi ngan harapan menggunung sebelum nih. ADOI!!!

aku bengang sebab aku dah plan nak kuar ngan 'abg. korea' (eh...eh...bila lak aku mula panggil dia 'abg korea' nih??) aku taknak kuar ngan dia sorang2...kalau kami berdua bahaya tau. aku tak suka. not my way of leisure...kot. aku tak selesa sebenarnya. jadi aku ke 'hulu' ke 'hilir' carik orang temankan aku. punya la susah. ada yang malas nak kuar la apa...ada yang ada kelas tu aku paham. yang buat plan awal pown aku paham. jadi takpa la kan? tapi masalahnya, bila aku ajak insan2 yang aku memang nak sangat temankan aku, ada lak tak nak g. okok...maybe kuar nanti diorang takut kena kuarkan banyak duit. tapi kuciwa gakk la hati nih.

aku nak kuar ngan 'abg korea' tapi aku nak kuar ngan kawan-kawan aku jugak biar ramai2. aku tanya ngan geng poret aku dia nak g ke tak. mulanya dia nak g, ok kira set la aku g ngan dia n 'abg korea' kan? dah tu, tetiba lak bila aku cakap yang aku kuar ngan 'abg. korea' dia cakap dia tak nak g pulak...sebab tak nak kacau aku ngan 'abg. korea' punya la aku kecik atie. aku dah bagitau dah aku tak nak g sensorang ngan 'abg. korea' sebab prinsip aku. aku tak suka berdua ngan orang lelaki sebenarnya. ada masa aku satu kereta ngan lelaki tu pun sebab aku mintak tolong kawan aku temankan aku g Desa Ilmu sebab memang aku desperate gila nak siapkan kerja. datu lagi sebab orang tu hantar kereta sewa. dah tu, aku tak nak berdua...tapi kenapalah orang tak nak paham?? kalau ngan BAPAK aku, aku tak kisahla...dah nama bapak aku...tak janggal la...

aku mesej kat kawan2 aku yang aku harap2kan...cam kitorang dah janji nak g tgk wayang semester ni, diorang bagi alasan lak. nih yang aku malas nih. kadang-kadang aku rasa cam takda kawan langsung je. bila aku perlukan diorang temankan aku kadang2 ade je diorang tak nak. okok...maybe aku bukan best friend diorang kot. tak cam belangkas sangat ngan diorang. tapi, diorang kan kawan aku. boleh dikira kawan aku yang paling rapat ngan aku kat cnie. bila aku perlukan diorang utk temankan aku g Desa Ilmu, salunya mesti diorang bagi alasan malas nak pegi la, penat la apa suma. lagi la aku nak bengang kadang2. sampai ada masanya aku sendiri pergi sorang2 sedangkan aku tak dibenarkan g sorang2. kecewa woooo....aku mmg salu kecewa. kali nih, aku offer drive pown bagi jugak alasan. nih yang aku malas. malas nak bertanya lagi pada masa hadapan sebab boleh dikatakan yang aku tak dapat nak bergantung ngan diorang. kalau diorang keluar mana2 pown bukan nak ajak aku kan? sabar2...kecik ati nih...KECIK ATIE SANGAT2.

nih bukan patah/retak hati ke????

aku tau, aku takda kawan, takda kakak or abang yang memang kamceng ngan aku, tak da tunang yang boleh temankan aku...tapi salahkah bila aku mintak kawan2 temankan aku? adoi!! susahnya...nasib baik aku dah biasa independent. tak yah nak bergantung sangat2 ngan korang kayh!

cam too good to be true je mende nih isq2

so ok...aku bagitau 'abg. korea' aku tunggu sorang lagi kawan aku reply. hurm...alhamdulillah kawan aku kata ok...tu pown sorang je. ok la tu. kan?

tup...tup...aku dapat mesej kata ada meeting pulak lepas asar esok....huih!! nih tak boleh jadi nih!! aku dah kata kot ngan pengerusi aku dah janji nak kuar ngan kawan aku...b4 dia buat meeting. lagi satu benda membengangkan aku. nampaknya terpaksa la aku balik awal esok malam sebab nak g meeting. Chehs!!! nasib aku mintak dia tukar masa. Iya la, aku naib pengerusi, kalau aku tak g, apa pulak kata exco2 lain kan??? tol tak?? tol tak?? kalau aku cancel plan ngan kawan esok sedangkan aku dah janji, amacam plak tu?? teruk jugak kan?? huiseh!

marah n tensen sampai tahap camnih pun ade gak!!

ok...dah...dah...dah...aku tak nak muka aku jadi tua....chet!! aku nak maintain awet muda sebab aku maseyh muda and belum berpunya....cheywah!!!! so, rasanya sekarang nih, aku abaikan je la korang sementara waktu membawa hatiku yang sedia ada kecik nih, semakin kecik. esok aku nak g tengok puss in boots k!!! lantak la...

wassalam

p/s: semalam aku mimpi patah gigi...YA ALLAH, mintak2 takda yang buruk jadi. tak senang duduk semalaman.

malam tadi jual jambu batu. ALHAMDULILLAH semuanya berjalan lancar, habis sekejap je jambu2 tuh. insya-ALLAH minggu depan jual lagi banyak.ehehe.

jumpa gambar nih...tertarik...dan terjatuh hati lak...ehehe...

YA ALLAH, permudahkanlah rancangan esok hari...

kecewa gak sebab dia mungkin takkan anggap aku lebih daripada nih...takpa...kena sabar gak. kan?

OMBAK RINDU...Aku Jatuh Cinta

2011-12-03T22:34:00.001+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

Yellopzz

ha...mesti semua orang tengah demam Ombak Rindu nih kan. tak lama lagi kuar la tudung Ombak Rindu, kain Ombak Rindu, Mi/Nasi Ombak Rindu...semuanya berombak2. ha....'gempak' gitu.

ahaha...okok...petang tadi sempat tengok Ombak Rindu kat Riverside. dan secara jujurnya cerita nih sangatlah menyentuh hati...

jap...jap...tengok tajuk atas.

"OMBAK RINDU...AKU JATUH CINTA"

aku jatuh cinta bukan ngan manusia kayh...tetiba jek...ngaha...aku jatuh cinta ngan cerita nih. romantik.

I LOIKE!

tengah hari tadi pergi tengok ngan Neyann, Sue dan Atie. Tak rancang apa2 pown. Takat jumpa2 and tengok wayang je. Ramai sungguh orang kat pawagam tadi. Ramai lagi budak2 UiTM yang datang 'ziarah'. hahak.

rumusan dan komen pasal cerita nih akan di update kat blog satu lagi. tunggu kayh.

apapun, yang menjadi ceritanya, masa wayang tuh lepas sejam leh lak rasa nak ke toilet. NGAH!!!!

habis kaki orang aku pijak nak g toilet and nak cepat.

(-_-)!! apada...

Sue dari awal cerita bukak adegan lagi dia dah ter'isk2' kat sebelah kanan. Aku lak cam takde perasaan, siap leh pulak buat komen2 'tak senonoh' ala2 trademark ngahaha...uit..angan pikir bukan2 kayh.

orang dok tepi kiri, kanan, depan belakang bukan main feeling lagi tengok movie nih. aku lak cam orang takda perasaan. tengok, feeling tapi bukan kuar kat mata air tu...kuar kat tempat len sampai half time kena 'make a run'. Dush2! tapi feeling la jugak.cuma aku nih, kalau dok tengok sorang2 leh la feeling2 sampai menitis seba;di air mata...chey! konon nye ajelah. ahah. dua jam aku nangis kot?

lepas tengok Ombak Rindu, aku ajak geng g K-Box pulak.tapi alamak!! K-Box penuh. chehs!!!! kurang asam garam manis masin tol. apada...so last2 tengok barang2 kat spring je la. baru nak g popular and tengok buku...tapi, erm...malas. sebab drive sensorang...dah nak malam lak tu. tak baik anak dara kuar rumah sensorang lepas maghrib kayh!

hurm.takpa2...nanti2 tengok wayang lagi ngan geng. tapi seriously nak beli cd cerita nih. tersangat sedih dan best. cam tahap p/s i love you punya best. tersentuh mak, jah!

walopun tak suka beberapa babak yang agak keterlaluan dalam movie nih, tapi overall boleh la...cuma nasihat kat sesapa yang kreatif dan terlibat ngan industri filem memilem nih, tolong la jgn over sangat nak gambarkan kat depan khalayak keintiman watak2 tu walopun dalam ceritanya diorang suami isteri. sebab ni melibatkan akidah jugak. berdosa bagi yang melakukannya, bagi yang meminta dilakonkan dan yang menonton pun terkena tempias. mintak tolong aje lah ye...ehehe...

p/s: terima kasih sangat2 kat mak n bapak sebab benarkan aku drive hari nih...

masa aku tengah jalan2 tengok barang tadi, lalu je kat area baju kemeja lelaki, aku terus teringatkan dia...alamak...g*** bayang ke aku nih??? tidak!!! semalam sekejap je dapat tengok dia. nampak cam takde mood je dia tu...alamak episod ANGIN Rindu pulak melanda aku nih...huikhuikhuik...saba2. dia tak tau lagi kot...ehehe.

Hujung Minggu Yang Memang Memenatkan

2011-12-01T17:09:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum, hye guys...

Woohoo...hujan lebat lagi hari nih... Lebat sangat2. ingatkan nak balik bilik je tadi. Tapi mengenangkan kena pergi HEP tanya pasal Perhimpunan Belia kat Shah Alam yang sepatutnya hujung minggu nih, sanggup gak redah hujan (chey...mengenang nasib sendiri nampak!). Tadi pergi tanya rupa2nya dah ditangguhkan ke bila yang tak tau bila tarikhnya lagi. Tunggu diorang lah bagitau nanti...tu pown kalau jadi lah. Pastu pergi cari Penyelaras Ko-Kadet Bomba. ahahaha... Penyelaras nih yang best bila nak jumpa...tiada makan2...(ngahahah) tapi banyak sembang2. So tadi jumpa pun sebab nak ambik senarai nama pelajar yang dah daftar Ko-Kadet Bomba untuk kehadiran dan untuk menyenangkan kerja2 kami yang dah sedia ada bertimbun nih. OK, dua kerja dah settle. Pastu g pulak buat photocopy nota ECO211. Haduih, punya la banyak barang diorang photostat...habisnya kena tunggu sampai rabu minggu depan baru dapat ambik nota tuh...MAAKKKK AIII!!! (banyak untung oooo).

So, dah siap semua kerja ingatkan nak balik bilik, nak rehat2 dulu, makan Nesvita ke...kemas2 barang ngan bilik, g bersih diri. Pastu g mesyuarat malam karang. Tapi alik2 makin lebat pulak hujan nih... Aku tak merungut kayh... Bagitau je... Hujan memang lebat pown. Hujan rahmat... Jadi sekarang tengah stuck kat library. Online and update blog je lah. Iyelah, dah lama gak tertangguh nak update blog nih. Online pun jarang nak main2 lagi. Buat kerja je. Huikhuikhuik. Aku redha...

Apa pun, sekali dah update nih baik aku update sal last weekend. Last weekend ada ICT Fair kat Borneo Convention Centre (BCCK). So, Macam biasa aku adalah antara salah seoprang yang tak boleh nak lepas pergi ICT Fair ni sebab aku memang suka nak 'menderma' duit beli barang2 komputer/ laptop. Memandangkan aku balik hari Jumaat, baik aku cerita dari hari Jumaat aje lah ye?

Jumaat aku balik rumah lewat sebab kesesakan lalulintas masa mak ngan bapak tengah dalam perjalanan nak ambik aku kat UITM Samarahan. So sampai2 aje kat bandaraya Kuching (chey! cam jaoh sesangat lah bunyi nye) dah petng sesangat. Aku kelaparan weyh. Sebab tengahari tak makan ingatkan nak makan ngan mak ngan bapak sekali. So kami tapau lah makanan kat kedai...(ade ke???) Yang aku ingat, aku tapau ROJAK AYAM kesukaan aku kat LIZA's CoffeeShop (dah namanya camtuh, tak payah nak tanya kenapa salah ejaan pulak kayh!). Nyumnyumnyujm. sedap sesangat. So, lepas makan aku ngan kawan aku yang ikut balik rumah minggu tu kemas2lah rumah sebab jiran aku nak guna rumah aku kot2 tak cukup tempat untuk oran datang. Mak Cik tu baru pulang dari Haji, so dengan ikhlas dan berbesar hati la kami tolong...Jiran, kenalah kita sentiasa bantu membantu... (ALHAMDULILLAH). Dapat jugak pahala kami sekeluarga...AMIN. So, malam tu, ade lah jugak ramai orang datang. Makan pown sedap. Menu?? Auk tak ingat. Ngahaha... tau makan je la katakan. Malam tu habis kenduri kendara apa semua, aku ngan kawan aku ngantok gila. So tido awal. (budak baik la katakan...)

Esoknya pulak kami pergi kenduri orang kawen pulak...nih antara kenduri pebret aku lah. Kena pulak kawan bapak aku and jiran jugak la dikiranya. So, makan free lagi...ngehehe...sedap makanan ui. Lepas habis kenduri tengok pengantin apa suma, bapak aku bawak kitorang g Masjid Jamek pulak. Ada karnival Maal Hijrah. Aku suka sangat pergi tempat2 macam nih. Best. Tup2 bertemu pulak ngan geng satu UiTM...baru kenal hari tu jugak.ahahaha.... tapi yang bestnya jugak, aku g beli air dari lori Kopisatu. Lori yang aku salu cari masa kat KL. Selalu je park kat sebelah Semua House setiap hujung minggu.

gambar wan nye...nih ambik dari blog orang tau...tq owner blognya...

Petang barulah g ICT Fair...makk aii...rambang mata dibuatnya pergi cni. banyak gak la gerai. Tapi macam biasalah gerai yang itu, itu jugaklah...yang biasa2 dilihat je...barang pun sama gak hampir keseluruhannya. Tapi sempat jugak aku beli barang ckit. Yang paling penting USB 2.0 Port tambahan untuk aku kerja. Cam sesalunya tak cukup port nak letak USB nih. Banyak nak transfer ape suma. Dah tuh aku beli mini vacuum cleaner untuk keyboard aku yang mungkin bertimbun habuk kat celah2nya...ew!! Aku belikan pencuci skrin jugak ngan erm...apa lagi ek?? tu je la kot.. Lupa dah... so tak sampai seratus pown. Ingatkan nak usha2 portable external hardisk Buffalo lagi...tapi takde pulak diorang jual jenis nih. Pelik bin ajaib.

Esoknya pulak g kenduri kawen lagi. Kalinih kat Suarah Civic Centre. Anak jiran jugak yang kawen. (banyak nya orang kawen...aku lom ada calon lagi nih). Petang lepas kenduri pergi lagi BCCk sebab komputer yang baru dibeli cam takda berfungsi (hekelleh...sedangkan salah sendiri kot pakai dua2 wayar tuh! ngahahaha) Habis berli satu lagi USB plug suma, balik and aku ngan kawan aku g pasar beli barang. Wah!! first time kot bapak bagi aku keluar ngan kawan and aku drive...Wahaha...alhamdulillah. letih ooo...banyak kerja.

Ingatkan Isnin tuh, cuti umum Maal Hijrah boleh rileks2 kat rumah...alik2, kitorang g jenjalan pulak...dekat nak satu hari suntuk jugak kami jenjalan. G boulevard ngan Giant Padawan... check-it-out...Giant Padawan tuh...jaohnye!!! ngahaha. Last2, petang tu jugak balik UiTM sebab kelas pukul 8 pagi hari Selasa.

okok...sampai cnih aku mencarut ckit kayh.nanti2 aku sambung.

WASSALAMUALAIKUM

papai!

p/s:

kiutnya!! jumpa gambar nih masa tgh browse barang tadi...ngehehe...kiut sangat2...

hurm...cam 'rindu' pulak nak jumpa dia...tak nampak pun seminggu2 nih...ihihihik...jangan gila bayang sudah!

PENAT TAK SUDAH2

2011-11-24T23:56:00.001+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

hye semua...

kiutnya kucing nih...mmg cam aku...aahahaha...thanks to the source. pinjam gak ye gambar nih.

YA ALLAH, penatnya! itu je yang dapat izzie katakan malam ni. bak kata orang sarawak, "KEPAK KAMEK!!" seriously penat sesangat. hari nih satu-satunya hari yang akan pack untuk sepanjang sem nih sebab izzie kena atur jadual supaya tak clash semua kelas. tapi itulah kan...sebab tak nak clash kena pulak macam nih. pack. tapi tak apa, rabu free gila sesangat. ok la tu. kan?? hari nih kelas mula pukul 8 sepatutnya untuk kelas AIS280 ngan Mdm Lulu. Tapi dia MC, so takde kelas sempat sambung tido melingkar atas katil lagi sampai pukul 9 lebih baru bangun and bersiap2 nak ke kelas. boleh rileks lagi tu. kelas pukul 10 sampai 12 pulak kelas FAR250 ngan Mdm Mariam (salah satu kod yang teramatlah aku lemah and susah nak paham tapi berikhtiar untuk dapatkan capaian terbaik sem ini insya-ALLAH). balik tgh ari rileks makan2 sekejap. pastu turun lagi untuk kelas pukul 2 sampai pukul 4 petang, kelas ECO211 dengan Sir Chong.

Petang tu pergi la bilik Eein sebab dengarnya dia sakit tadi. Izzie, Eein ngan Fit memang rapat jugak la...kot. Kami selalu kuar sama2, dan g kelas sama2. Lepak pun sama2. So rileks2 kat bilik dia kejap pai hujan lebat turun (alhamdulillah baju yang di jemur kat laundry tak basah dek hujan lebat ngan angin tadi.) dahkeb tu tak dengar ada mesej kata meeting persatuan pukul 6. ingtkan pukul 7 aduih. nasib baik kawan panggil, kalau tak naya den.

Ha...meh2, izzie kongsi sikit sal meeting tadi. Tadi kitaorang berbincang sal Exco2 baru MeDIA. MeDIA nih kira persatuan fakulti la. Maksudnya Members of Diploma In Accountancy UiTM Samarahan. Disebabkan ada beberapa orang exco tertinggi lama yang nak bersara, jadi kami nak cari penambah exco baru. So, bermulalah perbincangan. Tapi alik2 izzie ngan kawan sorang (James) men game pulak sebab lambat sangat. ahahaha...sambil menyelam minum air la kiranya. ngilang ngantok yang bertambah2 dengan nak g toilet lagi.adoi. So, tapi ada undian untuk jawatan pengerusi. izzie takda la letak harapan nak jadi pengerusi sebab tau la sejauh mana kelebihan dan kepandaian izzie dalam bab2 financial accounting nih. walopun pointer naik kali nih, tapi masih tak berkeyakinan sangat. so izzie undilah kawan izzie nama James tadi tu...tapi alik2 bila Mdm baca undian yang diorang buat, erk!!! kenapa lak la kena jadi Pengerusi Media untuk dua semester yang akan datang. Alhamdulillah sebab ada jugak orang yang percayakan kebolehan izzie dan harap2nya izzie tak mengecewakan diorang tuh. adui....tak nak...tak nak...insya-ALLAH izzie akan buat yang lebih baik dan berikan kerjasama kat semua yang bertugas sebagai exco MeDIA. mungkin ini cabaran untuk izzie kot. izzie dah mintak tukar tadi tapi diorang cakap tak payah tukar2 so redha je lah. Mungkin ada hikmah disebalik semuanya nih kot. lagipun izzie percaya, ALLAH tidak akan menurunkan ujian kepada hambanya sekiranya hambanya tidak mampu untuk menanggung ujian tu. so, ALLAH sayang kat izzie, jadi dia nak uji izzie mampu ke tak. izzie tau izzie mampu, cuma belum jumpa lagi buktinya. doa2kan lah ye...

so, balik tadi dah dalam pukul 10. uik!!! lewat gak kan...ehehehe...penat dh nih. on9 pun sekadar nak update blog nih. nanti la cerita yang lain2 yang jadi sepanjang minggu pertama kuliah nih yeh. tunggu ada tenaga dan ilham...ahahaha.

ok...til then, sayang korang...papai.

p/s:: si hero sungguh gentleman tolong semalam. thanks awak...ehehehe...sempat gak puji dia ensem...i mean memang betul apa, dia nampak ensem. kawan je, kan.....? buat saya senyum sendiri2 pulak ... adoi!

Mula Dah Sibuk 'Pindah' Balik...

2011-11-18T03:07:00.001+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM hye guys...

Nampaknya hari nih dah mula nak berangkat dan berpindah masuk ke asrama untuk semester baru. Rindu ngan kawan-kawan. Tapi dalam masa yang sama masih belum nak berhenti bercuti... Insya-ALLAH Isnin depan Izzie akan masuk semester ke-4 di UiTM, Samarahan. Huhue...alhamsulillah takda repeat paper. Jadi semuanya akan baru next sem. Dan bila dah mula semester tu ertinya busy balik la hidup...dugaan dan tanggungjawab seorang pelajar la katakan...Iye tak? Kena tunggu lagi lebih kurang 4 bulan untuk bercuti lagi. Lama2 bercuti memang boring jugak. Tapi selalu sangat masuk kelas tensen jugak. Hopefully this coming sem akan berjalan dengan lancar...AMIN.

So esok hari Izzie akan ke kampus. Ambik kunci bilik...seems like i'll be staying in my room (for the last 2 semesters) again. Nothing's much. And will be picking my friends up at desa ilmu. Will be packing my stuff and clean my room tomorrow. But look at the time now...my dad would expect me to sleep early and wake up early for today.

So, ok la. Til then. See ya!

p/s: something's seriously wrong with this K9 Web Protection...takda signal pulak nak masuk FB...sheesh!

CONTEST MY BFF BY ANEYZSAMS .

2011-11-17T01:38:00.001+08:00

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SUDAH LAMA AKU CARI...

2011-11-17T00:17:00.001+08:00

salam...

chey!! tajuknye...ngahaha...

entri nih sebenarnya saja je...nak post pasal lagu My All yang dibahasa Melayu-kan untuk persembahan majlis anugerah ntah apa ntah.dah lupa dah. lama sangat ape mencari baru sekarang Izzie jumpa...ha...untuk kongsi2 lah katakan...

E.N.J.O.Y.!

liriknya lebih kurang cam nih la ye...

ku mentafsirkan kelemahan dan kesilapan

adakah datangnya dariku...mungkin sebaliknya

atau kau ada mengubahkanmu hingga terkeliru

ku berikan emas intan dan permata

bukan kaca kilau tiada berharga

tetapi sayangnya

kau terpukau kau lupa segalanya

yang pernah kita ciptakan semua ini

pernahkah berdetik atau terlintas di penjuru hati

untuk kau kembali menyambung mimpi kian punah

seberupaya biarku berubah segala-galanya

[chorus]

ku berikan emas intan dan permata

bukan kaca kilau tiada berharga

tetapi sayangnya

kau terpukau kau lupa segalanya

yang pernah kita ciptakan semua ini

lirik tu izzie amik dari SINI

so nyanyi la korang...kehkehkeh...

TRAVEL LIGHT ANYONE?

2011-11-16T21:47:00.001+08:00

salam. hey peeps.

of all the things that i've packed and of all the travels i've been through this past years, seriously, there's no doubt for me to say that it's almost IMPOSSIBLE for me to travel light. nay-vuhh!! ehe...most of the travels i've been through the least that i would be able to carry is when i compressed my stuff into one medium sized luggage and one small backpack/trolley. that does not count my hand bag yet! ok...seriously not the light packer/traveler type.

i have this habit of putting my dress and outfits into the luggage and my shoes will be i the small backpack. most of the times i need to bring one shoe and a slipper for toilet 'visit' purposes. i'l bring my own towels bcoz most places i went to aren't hotels. it's lucky enough if i don't need to bring any small pillow, bed sheet or blanket. will need to bring my toiletries and make-up kit. even though most of the times my make-up kit will only be of that of a small 3 colour palette natural eye-shadow, cream for my sensitive skin, an eyeliner, lipstick and mascara put into my handbag. that's still something to bring.so it's kind of understandable that i have to pack up and be satisfied with ONLY a luggage and a backpack. do you realise i emphasised on the word ONLY? that's because i can sometimes bring more than that even for just a weeks trip or two.

oooo....almost like this... (photos from HERE)

then i stumbled onto this video on travelling light posted and linked by my friend:

and then i was just..."OOOOOKKKKAAAYYYHHH!" and he's packing like for a MONTH? ok seriously need to learn something. but then again, he's packing for a man's wear. so technically he doesn't need to consider where to put the make-ups and brassiere or the panty-liners and etc...but still, the loads being put into that small (i'll consider that small) backpack is ... erm... still amazes me. so hope you guys will get something from this vid.

thanks to mr. eviltommy for this youtube post.

so for me, hopefully i can try something like this for my future travels. ehehehe.

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IZZIE'S 10 SIMPLE TRAVELLING TIPS goes like this:

Make sure you tie RIBBON or and indicator on your bags and luggage (especially when you are sending it off to the cargo). put identical colour because this will help you to make sure that you do not forget the bags and even taken other people's bags by accident. COLOURED RIBBONS is a king of identification aside from your name tags and etc especially when you're picking it up from the conveyor belt.

Remember to put tags on your luggage which include your name (a simple 1st name or something to indicate that it's yours) and contact number shall anything happened to the bags or luggage...like missing in action or left behind at the airport or something.

(owwh...love these bags and luggage!)

Count your luggages so that you none of your belongings are missing.

Put your pocketknife or whatever sharp into the luggage so that it'll be shipped to the cargo. No weapons are allowed in the cabin.

Do not ever ever ever ever forget about your itineraries and ticket. put it somewhere you cam easily take it out. put your identity card with it as well because you will present it together.

drool...nyum...nyum...nyum...

Bring some sweets or chewing-gum just in case for the take-off and the touch-down because this will minimise that irritating and painful effect in your ear.

MOST IMPORTANT THING PEOPLE!! never ever ever ever aye-vuhh leave you luggage unattended. seriously never. even when you need to go to the loo. bring it along with you. or better still, go before you reach airport, and go right after you touched down before the bags are filled onto the conveyor belt. this is serious because if you left it anywhere it wouldn't only be stolen, some creepy guy will even frame you for drug trafficking or something.what i did was either that two things i stated above or i'll keep my bladder til i reached my destination.

now, money wise...do not put all your money at one place. place it it two or three places. if you keep your money in the purse, leave some in your jeans pocket, some in your socks or someplace else. this is important and kind of handy when you travel. so if by any chance your bag are stolen (pray hard none of that happens) you will still have some other keepsakes and money to be used for emergencies. tough putting some money in your socks might sound so stupid, but hey...it helps a lot...and it's kindda secret. otherwise, bring less cash and a couple of cards to swipe.

If you're a first-timer to the place, remember your map or gps. just in case you got lost or something. even you weren't familiar with the place, travel map will be able to help you here and there. make research of the place you're going even when you'll have your travel guide along. the least that you could do is to remember the embassy contact number and address (if you're going overseas and other country) and the local police (for domestic) as well as the contact number of your hotel and it's name and address. Also try to keep the travel guide's number if you're on tour. learn a few 'yes' and 'no' and 'hye' in other languages. that'll help A LOT actually.

Learn the route of the roads, railways and tubes so that it'll be easier for you to travel and know your stops.

Remember to bring your medications if you're on it. Also, bring raincoats, or fold-able umbrella (put it in the luggage for cargo), and travelling dictionary (if you must) to help you with your travel.

Charge your electronics especially phones and cameras because you'll need it during emergencies or even just for sigh seeing.

* * *

OK peeps, i think that's it for the 10 travelling tips that i could think of for now. hope it can help you get through your travel..or something.

will share tips on shopping while travelling later if i've got the chance.

so til then, thanks and see ya!!

~~xoxo~~

TENSENNYE!

2011-09-30T00:17:00.000+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...
hye ya'all...

akhirnya dapat gak aku on9. update posts. actually wanna update the blog the second i walked out of the examination hall last sunday. to tell you the truth, i am just too disappointed with that particular paper. perhaps i didn't do much preparation. i always do have problems with FAR papers (Financial Accounting). like, seriously.......teroknya!!

lepas paper far kena pulak sit utk paper mgt...YA ALLAH. lom habis lagi stress nih ilang....HADOH2....

ok...

anyways, dah siap dah suma paper, so skarang tinggal LAW. pagi tadi MAF220 ok la jugak...cuma ada masalah sebab aku lupa...adehs!!

ok...makan dlu b4 makan ubat.pening kembali lagi...

tatas ppl

wassalamualaikum

p/s: hati berbunga bila tengok seseorang hari nih...hati suka seseorang mesej hari nih...ehehehe

The Beginning of My Saturday

2011-09-24T13:46:00.000+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM... hye guys!

Dah hampir nak seminggu sakit baru nak ke klinik. Memang mencari nahas ko Zan...ahahaha. ok . sakit telinga aku masih lagi especially bila nak malam. Sungguh tak suka kayh. masa test nih nak kena makan ubat pulak.tu la yang tak suka nya. but seriously? HADOI! (amek ko!)

So, I'm done with my 2nd final paper, CTU231. Alhamdulillah, I did whatever that I think I can do. Three questions. Hopefully I can get good marks for that. I mean, seriously want that marks. Ustaz, saya nak markah baik2 boleh? *wink2*

ok semalam n hari nih dah tengok beberapa carried mark for the semester. Alhamdulillah my BEL311 code is among the highest. and Alhamdulillah also, that my MGT162 and CTU231 code I've got a rather good mark to start with. Hopefully that'll be wnough to get the A and A+. Amin...amin...amin... insya-ALLAH.

I'm rather disappointed with my FAR200 marks though. I have to admit that formatted papers are often my drawback from getting high marks. I only score just a little over half of the carried marks. But still, Alhamdulillah. I hope I can still get at least some marks to catch up tomorrow. I need at least 4 paper to get 4.00 point and the other two at the range of 3.5 or so. pls...too desperate. talking about desperation, i think i'd better be off now. update u later.

xoxo

p/s: had my lunch, taken my meds...why does my belly still making sounds??? funny eyh!

2011-09-23T16:01:00.001+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

hye guys!

sekarang nih kat library. menyempat belikan tiket utk lawatan MEDIA ke KL awal November depan. nasib la line kat library nih lancar je. dapat jugak beli tiket tu. since dah ada kat library nih, amikla kesempatan mencari maklumat2 yang ada utk ctu esk. line broadband kat bilik cam hampeh sedangkan dah bayar dah pown isnin lepas.

sekejap je dah petang dah pown hari ni. OK, keyboard kat library nih punya la bising bila ditekan. especialy kalau cepat menekan punat2nya cam aku skarang nih. anyways, talking about library. patutnya aku sambung belajar kat library skarang nih. tapi aku cam stuck carik extra notes untuk CTU231 esok. plus, bertemu lak ngan paper FAR200 ahad nih and MGT162 isnin karang. HADOI!! banyak ooo keje. i mean, nak blaja...HADOI!! ok skarang aku dah rasa cam nak makan kfc. ngahaha...banyak siot nafsu nak makan...HADOI! sekali lagi sebab mengempiskan beg duit aku. boros gak.tapi dah dilidah2 rasa ayam kfc...ASTAGHFIRULLAHALAZIIM... trok btol ko, zan.

anyways, tengah blank nak study apa lagi. nak buat pastyear paper la balik nih...kot. ahahaha. HARUS... sebab esok dah paper.aku nak jugak dapatkan markah yang tinggi. cam aku cakap sebelum nih kan, DESPERATE sangat nak dapatkan ANYGERAH DEKAN sekali lagi. yang membingungkan aku semestinya kertas FAR200 aku. ngan LAW240 la...HADOI!! tahap gaban HADOI-nya. harapan aku hanyalah pada paper CTU231, BEL311, MGT162 ngan sipi2 harapan pada MAF220. aku nak buat betul2 paper2 nih. sebab kebanyakannya sepatutnya dapat score. n aku perlu score. (boleh gila kalau camni sangat kayh! tak baik tau!)

ahaha.ok.aku merapu lagi....hancuss tol...lapa nih, lom makan dari pgi tadi. so aku nak berangkat ke KFC untuk makan malam-COMBO.ahahaha...pastuh...meh kita sama2. BELAJAR!!!!

p/s:: perutku berkriuk2 menyanyikan lagu raya ahahaha...nak MAKAN.

Something That Should Have Been Posted =)

2011-09-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM... HYE PEEPS!

OK, first and foremost, I just have to say this :

"Dear Blog,

I LOVE You so much. I am so, SO sorry that I sort of abandoned you for quite sometime now. Blame the coverage coz every time I have something to share and pour out to you, it seems so hard to get the coverage to run smoothly. Always got stuck and blank in the middle of the post...yep, BLAME the coverage. Apparently there's a lot going on during my absence here though. Lots of thins to share but I don't know where to start. So Allah, help me out here pls.

Thanks!

LOVE,

Ur BFF"

So yeah, I've been neglecting my so-called 'responsibility' to update this blog of mine for quite a long time. To tel you the truth, I am rather missing it ahaha. OK laugh all you like. Bare in mind that this post might come with different languages. I mean, I'm updating this one with my own mother-tongue as well as the modern lingua franca. So, where should I begin?...

owh yeah....let's start with this...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

So sorry that this wish comes so late. It's almost the end of Syawal already. But hopefully I can still wish you these. I knew Sarawakian usually beraya for the whole Syawal! But still opportunity doesn't come twice eyh? I don't know if it is applicable for this one though. HAHA!

So anyway, I would want to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI & HAPPY EID MUBARAK to everyone readers or not. It doesn't matter. MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

Kalau ada salah dan silap, saya dan keluarga minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki. Semoga ukhuah yang terbina antara kita semua kekal abadi. AMIN...

GOODLUCK PEOPLE!

OK, it's already the examination season. (Ya ALLAH, tak puas lagi beraya weyh!)

I'm still stuck studying all that I have to study for the final. Hopefully I can improve my marks. It seems so hard to get into the Dean's List again. Owh My ALLAH. Sad huh. My bad. I didn't really do much. Most of the time too tired to study.

But anyway, as for now, one paper over, 5 left. Still a long way to go.

~~Monday, Sept 19 - BEL311 (OVER!!)~~

Saturday, Sept 24 - CTU231

Sunday, Sept 25 - FAR200

Monday, Sept 26 - MGT162

Thursday, Sept 29 - MAF220

Tuesday, Oct 4 - LAW240

Luckily my LAW240 paper is the week after next. Still got time to shove everything back into my head I guess. I'm just worried about this weekend, all three papers are just simply too much. FAR200 is by far, FAR FAR AWAY from my full understanding. MY GOD! I'm just simply that bad???

Hoping to at least get some A's. A couple or two maybe. I am TOO desperate for that Dean's List. PLEASE!!!! *wink2*

I THINK, I MIGHT HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE AGAIN

OK I know in the past I have posted something similar to this. AHHA.. But this time, I have to tell you I kindda really like this boy. But I can't say anything. My lips are sealed....

OWH OK! I just need to pour it out somehow. Hahaha...

Just fragments...not the details...ehehe

As usual, this particular person is of course taller than I am. Tall people are somewhat irresistible to me. He's cute and always got his way around of making me laugh that sometimes I'll laugh even by just merely thinking of him. He always has stories to share with me. Well, whenever we're talking that is. But I don't know why somehow whenever we sort of passed each other in campus he never seems to bother to say 'HI'. Does he hates me? (OK. Sure point me out. That sentence just have to have grammatical mistake right?) There is always stuff to argue even when most of the times I am the one that started it. But truth to be told, havig him around me it makes me feel so happy and I can now somehow smile that smile that I once had almost 5 years ago. Because every time he was around, my heart jump the somersault flip that it used to do. In class or whenever I think he will be there he'll be the one I'll be looking for. Just to look nothing more, nothing less, and DON'T you go thinking that I'll be imagining all those horrid things about him because I don't.

OK back to the not-so-detailed about him things... I LOVE his clean looks. Smart outfit. He's nerdy sometimes. But he have that sense of style. Korean, Chinese, Japanese or whatever that is, it works for him - WELL. It is safe for me to say for now that he's a gentleman. But a bit behind on being romantic. Romantic are always something to be learn by ALL men. SERIOUSLY people!

OK. I think that's enough about him though. Nothing else to share I guess. Will share if I've got some updates on HIM.ehehehe... (MY GOD! bunyik gedik sungguh ko nih!)

CURRENTLY ON MY PLAYLIST

ok aku cam syok tetiba ngan lagu2 nih...just heard it and terus suka...like...sangat2 suka.ehehe...
I'll post some of them...still looking for the lyrics and videos...

KRU - TIGA KATA
SHEILA, JACLYN VICTOR, NING BAIZURA - BERIBU SESALAN
ALYAH - KISAH HATI
NAJWA LATIF - CINTA MUKA BUKU
MAHER ZAIN - FREEDOM (particularly like this one. cerita sal semangat umat Islam membebaskan tanah Palestin)

will post the videos and lyrics later...my boradband coverage is again failing me.

I think that's all for the time being. Will be back with more stuff to talk about. Tata peeps.

Wassalamualaikum =)

p/s: tadi ingatkan nak g ke KFC makan...macam teringin lak nak g KFC. So, ajak kawan2. tapi kawan2 lak tak nak g...ADUSS takde teman den. Cam malas je nak bergantung ngan orang nih kan...macam2 kerenah. Biarlah...kawan mmg kawan, tapi tak semuanya leh tolong kita bila kita perlu diorang. Kadang2 macam alasan depa bagi kat hangpa. Tak gitu??? So in the end, aku dok g jalan kaki sorang2 jugak ke D.I. g KFC. tapi instead of going to KFC for an early dinner, tengok mayoh urang nyak!! Terus g kedai sebelah...abang KFC bernama Pizza Hut...maka, duduklah aku sorang2 kat sebuah meja kat satu sudut Pizza Hut...huhuhu...kalau ade teman maksud aku orang yang aku suka (since aku xmok bergerek, kawan tapi saling suka sama suka ya jak la kali), mesti aku sik sorang2. Leh ku makan sambil kenal2 ngannya nak?? ADOI! [panjang gakk p/s aku nih...KAN...]

REPLY LA WEI!

2011-08-18T14:53:00.002+08:00

my blog dah tak betul da....bak kata org sarawak, ngambor jak isik blog ku tok!!

huhuhu...sebenarnya tgh dalam annoyance nih. ekceli, geram plak bila org yg ditunggu2 tak reply mesej. tambah2 kalau kita suka orang tu or ape2. it's like "URGH!" major! knapa la diorang nih tak reply2. buat aku tetiba terpikey yang diorang nih seolah2 melarikan diri dari aku je. ada apa2 yang aku tak tau tapi korang tau ke? ke dah tau aku ska kat korang? kalau tau pown, buat2 besa je lah...bukannya aku obses pown ngan korang...adui!!!

huhuhu...kuciwa nih tau!

HEADING BACK TO CAMPUS...again.

2011-08-15T05:57:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum & hey3! guess what, IT'S MONDAY!! tippie!!! (so not!)

ahahha...

ok. so as usual, today i'll have to head back to campus. will be leaving around 8 something i assume. my first class of the week ain't no that early. it's at 10 am. so i guess i'll have about two hours to get back there and send my stuff to my room and head to class. or so...like i usually leave the house at 9!! aha.

anyway, will be having a test to day...guess3 what code it was....LAW162 (is that even the correct code???) ok...will be tested on written and unwritten law...the sources of law. let's just hope and pray that the questions are of the ones that i've been studying and understand last Thurs. hopefully my carried marks will be ok...i just desperately in need of those marks! owh come on!!!

ok then, will be updating you again perhaps after the test (?). tatas!

WASSALAM...

ALLAH, SABARKANLAH HATIKU MENGHADAPI DUGAAN INI...

2011-08-14T02:17:00.011+08:00

"Semoga kamu mendapat cukup kebahagiaan untuk membuat kamu bahagia,

Cukup cubaan untuk membuat kamu kuat,

Cukup penderitaan untuk membuat kamu menjadi manusia yang sesungguhnya,

Dan cukup harapan untuk membuat kamu positif terhadap kehidupan."

aku senyum, tapi hati ni tak setenang senyuman. aku nak nangis, tapi terlalu ego nak nangis.

sakit hati? tak...cuma terluka dan terhiris. aku tak suka buat musuh. kalau aku tak setuju, aku akan berterus-terang, tapi bukan untuk semua orang ketahui. cukupla antara aku dan dia. kenapa selalu jadi macam ni?

kenapa bila kita dah anggap orang tu rapat, percaya itu ini, rupa2nya semua tu tipu?

kenapa bila kita diam, orang cakap kita salah?

kenapa bila kita nak betulkan keadaan, orang perlekehkan?

kenapa aku mesti berjumpa dengan golongan yang khianati aku?

kenapa aku mesti hadapi semua ni sampai adakalanya mengaibkan diri aku sendiri, walhal orang lain yang lakukannya?

YA ALLAH, banyak nya aku mengeluh. Teruk betul hambaMu seorang ni Ya ALLAH. berat hati ni, hanya engkau yang tahu. Aku tak tahu kalau aku dianiayai atau silap aku sendiri yang jadikan keadaan ni semakin teruk. HURM...itula...patutnya aku ikut apa kata hati ni. Lebih baik banyak diam. Bila diam, kita tak menambahkan dosa, tak jadikan keadaan susah untuk diri kita ni.

Ujian ALLAH ada kat mana-mana. Belum terlambat untuk aku ingtkan diri nih tentang semua tu. SABAR...aku harap sabar dan berserah diri kepada ALLAH itu lebih baik ganjarannya. Jadi penawar hidup aku.

Edah, belajarlah untuk tidak menjadi terlalu naif dan terlalu percayakan seseorang. Bila masa susah, mereka tidak akan ada bersama kita. Jangan benci jika mereka lukai perasaan ni. Sebab benci itu bukan milik mahupun hak kita. Jangan bazirkan tenaga untuk semua yang tidak penting.

i'm not a failure. i've been through a lot lately, and those bits and pieces should make me strong. stronger than anything else than ever before. i should know, i've been to this place before, and unfortunately, under certain circumstances, am back here again. pray for a better tomorrows though. i don't want to be here again and again. i'm only human, nothing supernatural or much of a different than any other flesh and blood. i am me, and i am too, with all that ALLAH al-Mighty have created, fragile. i should've known better, life isn't a drama, nor a fairy tale.

i cried when i need to, when i want to...but this very second, my tears are of humiliation from their act, whomever they'd be. i taught myself to be strong my whole life, please stay that way.

i do not have much close friends to be able to share with. nor did i have other places to try to make me feel better. i need someone or anyone to share my feelings with right now. anonymous you may be, who knew me or not, or if somehow i knew you, i hope this is not too much to ask for. Just to read, and never judge me, or anyone else. I just need to make peace with my own feelings through this. Sorry.

"Wahai Tuhan kami! Limpahkanlah sabar kepada kami, dan teguhkanlah tapak pendirian kami serta menangkanlah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir"
(Al-Baqarah : 250)

"Wahai Tuhan kami, limpahkanlah kesabaran kepada kami, dan matikanlah kami dalam keadaan Islam (berserah bulat-bulat kepadaMu)"

(Al-A'raf : 126)

doakan kesabaranku...

wassalam

09:01 PM

ASSALAMUALAIKUM dan hey3!~

Alhamdulillah. seems like my mood if recovering from the shock and disappointment. Ya ALLAH, galau sangat rasa hati sampai terlupa pula nak bagitau kat orang2 kampung ni...ehehee..malu pulak I. macam mana boleh lupa kan???

okok.

DENGAN INI SAYA MENGUMUMKAN...tehehehe...skema je bunyik!

SAYA DAN KELUARGA MENGUCAPKAN

saya memohon keampunan andainya ada salah dan silap, kasar tutur kata dan teguran yang mungkin bagi saya biasa tetapi bagi anda melukakan, perilaku yang melampau atau tidak dikenan oleh hati.

Ramadhan ni bulan yang baik untuk mendidik hati lebih merendah dengan ujian dan dugaan ALLAH. mendidik diri untuk menjadi lebih baik dan yang paling penting untuk meng-UPGRADE IMAN yang kadang2 bertambah pun terhakis jugak....naik turun naik turun je pasang surut IMAN tu...harap2 berkat RAMADHAN, keimanan kita berkekalan...AMIN.

ALHAMDULILLAH, kita dipertemuka lagi dengan Ramadhan kali ni. ALLAH masih bagi peluang untuk kita tambah ibadah dan dekatkan diri kita kepadaNya. Takut bila Ramadhan lepas terfikir macam mana takkan jumpa Ramadhan yang akan datang?? Jadi kepada bloggers semua, hargailah peluang ini. Kalau ada orang cakap, "ala...Ramadhan ngan Syawal, tahun depan pun ada....toksah la sibuk sangat ngan benda tu." Ha.....boleh bagi tau kat diorang, diorang boleh jamin ke akan betemu Ramadhan pada masa akan datang??? ha.....tengok dia jawab apa.....ehehe...sesungguhnya masa itu singkat...umur kita pulak makin pendek...jadi amikla peluang nih baik2 ye...ehehe...insya-ALLAH, ganjaran berlipat kali ganda dijanjikan kepada kita oleh ALLAH.

AMIN

HATI TAK PANDAI MENIPU...jadi?

2011-06-23T01:56:00.003+08:00

ustaz kata, kalau tak pasti, pergi tanya kat hati kita...sebab hati tak pandai menipu.bila aku tanya hati aku sekarang ni, hurm....patut aku ikut ke? cam mana pulak peribahasa ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa?

mode: aishiteru...stuck in my mind

i need to let go rite?

2011-06-05T01:16:00.004+08:00

salam...

hidup cukup indah kalau kita tau menghargainya dan tidak berlebihan.

(rasanya aku ni kekadang mmg jiwang jugak eyh.ahahaha. tapi iyela...nak buat macam mana la kan?)

kita ni, kalau ALLAH berikan kita hidup untuk satu hari lagi, satu hari yang kita tinggalkan dibelakang sedang kita berjalan ke depan akan menjadi sejarah. tak gitu? sepatutnya aku tau tu and aku praktikkan. belajar daripada kesilapan tak kira apapun yang kita akan pelajari, dan teruskan hidup. aku pernah suka seseorang, dia pun suka aku jugak rasanya. tapi...mungkin bukan jodoh kami. so kami takde la kemana-mana pun. so aku teruskan hidup and tak nak toleh2 lagi. jangan pandang ke belakang la katakan. ye tak?

tapi kadang2 bila aku nak langkah ke depan, terpaksa jugak aku menoleh untuk pastikan aku tak buat benda yang sama. the thing is, aku tak tau kenapa aku mesti teringat dengan budak nie. what's past is past. nothing can help it. and i doubt that i want it anymore. not with the same person and not for the same result.tapi aku selalu je nak cari dia utk tau dia buat ape...alowe????? what is wrong with me??????? ok...i NEED to look for other possible candidates for my mr. right!! like seriously!!!

TATA MAY, HEY THERE JUNE

2011-06-01T02:35:00.005+08:00

Salam..hye ya'al.

It's June already. I'n a few days away to return to my 'camp' as my dad says. It doesn't feel like i had had a holiday. (Izzie2...you lazy bum) Still not ready to get back there yet. Somehow my brain feel too relazed and too lazy. OWH NO!!! Might be degenerated caused by too much relaxation. Haiz!!

I thought of shedding some weight for the holidays...ahaha...you can definitely laugh at that! So as expected, it didn't work. A few hours ago, I put on my kebayas and baju kurungs just to try it on and see if I can still fit in it...i might wear it for the wedding tomorrow (today!! and ur still not sleeping!) but surprise2....I CAN'T FIT IN MOST OF THEM!!! OMG!!! so clearly i have to do something about this.

So here's the plan, once i get back to campus, I need to start fasting. Apart from to train myself for the coming Ramadhan, i might as well lose some weight and shed those extra bulkiness and flatten my belly. Hopefully before Hari Raya there'll be differences...PLS...PLS...PLS... Might be because of the stress and all. I seemed to turn to food to comfort me and to occupy my time. HEH! as if that'll help me in any sort of way.

So it's my cousin's cousin's wedding tomorrow. It's actually the reception. And i'm left in a dilemma what to wear to the wedding. HAIZ!!! Hopefully my green baju kurung still stood by me for that.

Ah...did i mention? What...no? ok...i'm mentioning it now then. I'm going to campus tomorrow, just to put things to it's place since I'm most probably won't be in campus for the first day of lecture. Will be in Shah Alam for SiFE Bootcamp. Will be flying on Friday morning. (EARLY morning) and i don'y really know what time will be reaching back here. So have to prepare my stuff as early as i could so that i can get back from KL and straight to my dorm (another NO!!!!). OMG! the last week f holiday can be as pack as this??? Haiz!! Didn't expect that though. I was thinking of going for a walk and shopping the days of hols. But na'ah...not for me.

Still have to get my room tidy up before leaving it for weeks. Erm...when will this take place?? Erm....tomorrow night? (WHAT??? Izzie...izzie...izzie...always wait for the last SECOND!)

huhu..i just have the thing for crafts and stuff...huhu...daddy...daddy...can i have a small, portable sewing machine? please...... (o_o)

ok...now i'm out...gotta get ready for tomorrow. don't wanna wake up late...AGAIN!! so cherrios...tata!

xoxo

THE FINAL IS NEAR....adoohmak!!

2011-04-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum...hye sume...

adui...skarang nih da nak mula final exam da...tengok...tengok ape aku tengah buat ni......ON9!!!! ape nak jadik ngan ko nih izz?? adui. aku nak blaja...nak blaja...nak blaja...tapikan...adui...mmg tak cukup iman lagi la aku nih....astaghfirullah!! naudzubillah!!! tak baik nye aku...jahat dowe! adui....

aku nak kena buat something!!! cepat.... sebelum aku nangis tak tentu pasal sebab tak blaja karang, naya aku.wish me all the best peeps!! nanti after final insya-ALLAH aku update lagi.

kepada semua yang sedang menduduki perperiksaan akhir a.k.a. cik abg and cik adek FINAL kita, SELAMAT BERJAYA!! GAMBATE!!!

tomorrow is today

2011-04-08T03:43:00.003+08:00

salamz...

huhuhu...nak tau skarang nih pukul berapa kat jam aku?? pukul 3.45 pagi....aduih....esok kelas pukul 8 pagi.tak gila tuh? aduih....aduih...hurm...malam ni aku rasa cam serabut jugak.perut masuk angin sebab aku tak makan sangat siang tadi....mkn kfc malam...nak diet n simpan duit konon...aduih.hurm...hurm...

insya-ALLAH petang esok aku akn berangkat ke KL. ikut konferens SIFE uitm kat shah alam. hahaha...jangan tanye naper n camner aku leh kena pilih coz aku mmg tak tau. tapi ok la tu...ehehe...ade gak pengalaman aku ni kan? hurm...beg dah hampir 80% packed. cuma yang len tu esok jelah kot...kot?? hehehe...

alhamdulillah, semester kedua kat uitm ni, rezeki aku banyak. dapat pergi hulu langat, miri ngan insya-ALLAH shah alam semuanya ditanggung oleh uitm (dan duit cukai yang korang bayar...) ade faedahnya insya-ALLAH dan ALHAMDULILLAH. aku pasal bisnes2 nih aku mmg suka sangat.tak tau knapa la...tap

i firasat aku mengatakan yang aku minat ni sebab mak aku minat beniaga...kot? ehehe... tapi itulah datangnya rezeki aku insya-ALLAH.

tak lama lagi dah nak exam final.aduih...cukup ke ilmu didada ni di gilap? rasa terkurang yang teramat. hurm...semester ni, exam kena packed dalam 10 hari je...sebab nak bagi cuti awal.hahaha...aku cuma leh ketawa dalam duka je....10 hari...pack tuh....huhu... harap2 aku dapat la lagi dekan kali ni insya-ALLAH...doa sangat2.

ehem...sebenarnya aku gembira le hari nie...ekeke...sesuatu yang aku harapkan, ALLAH jadikan kenyataan. aku jumpa dia...ihihik...sebenaqnya, alu terserempak je ngan dia...bukan betul jmpa pown.aha.tapi...apa pun...hatiku ttp berbunga b

eb!! aku rasa, aku mungki jatuh hati lagi nih...eh...nanti la aku sembang sal ni ye...ehehe...panjang ceritanya...nak dipendekkan, aku tengah minat kat seseorang...ekeke...dari jauh je minat tu...

p/s: dalam duduk nih...ade pulak rase nak minum susu...

men'cuci' blog yang dah ditinggalkan....

2011-04-03T16:40:00.002+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

hye sume...huhu...lamanya tak update blog nih...dah nak habis semester 2 kat UiTM baru perasa lama dah tak ber-blogging. al maklumla...balik jrang la jugak...kalau balik rumah pun bukannya dapat nak ber-blogging panjang...malas...letih...kadang2, balik rumah tido je keje. aduiyai. hurm...sebenarnya banyak yang nak di-update-kan...tapi ketiadaan broadband mudah alih tu le yang mengekang dan membantutkan idea-idea dalam kepala hotak nieh.iyela, takkan nak pinjam bband orang len je kalau nak ber-blogging kan? huhuhu...so kesudahannya, pinjam untuk buat assignment je la....kalau sempat update fb, upadate la...kalau tak, hurm...mmg bersayang betul la semua bende tak di layan.

apapun, insya-ALLAH, nanti habis final aku update...kalau sempat before final aku update aku update la...itu insya-ALLAH ye...nih dah nak blik kampus nih...esok da start kelas...nak buat assignment MGT152 lagi...hanto esok.kuikuikui....

bye ya'alz

crush...crushes...crushed! (a simple thought to share)

2011-01-16T14:06:00.001+08:00

dolok aku minat ngan daniel radcliffe...then aku suk ngan lee byung hun...kakya, kinek aku minat shahir uiks.....apa da jadi????????

REMEMBERING 2010

2010-12-31T23:07:00.002+08:00

salam and hye sume...

aku cam malas je nak tulis blog sgt... tak tau la nape....takleh jadi nih!! aduyai.apaun...aku kena jugak update blog nih sebab kena kemaskan blog ni la....(iyelah. ko tak nampak sarang2 labah2 kat atas tuh...debunye lagik...adui) okok....jaoh sgt aku merepek nih....hurm.

blog piece aku kali nih, aku nak buat untuk remember tahun 2010...tahun yang banyak benda jadik kat aku...yang baik, yang tak....yang sedih....yang best giler!!! ahahaha....

ok...aku rasa aku nak start cam ni....

PERGINYA SEORANG LAGI PAK CIK TERSAYANG

dalam aku sekeluarga tengah nak berkemas nak menunaikan ibadah umrah awal Februari lepas, kami dikejutkan dengan panggilan telefon dari KL. khabarnya, pakcik aku Mohd Mostafa telah pergi ke rahmatullah...tinggal dua tiga hari lagi nak berlepas ke kl...sedih nya hati ni...sebab ingtkan nak ziarah dia sekeluarga sebelum pergi ke tanah suci...tapi ALLAH lebih sayangkan dia. so, kami cuma bertemu jasadnya yang kaku saja yang sibawa balik ke kuching nih. sedih sangat2. moga2 rohnya dicucuri rahmat...amin.

uncle aku nih baik sangat2 orgnya....dia pandai mengurut...kalo sakit kaki, berangin ke ape ke...dia terer menurut....dia nih suka senyum...org jahat kat dia pun dia boleh baik ngan org tu....hurm...miss him a lot.

PERJALANANKU...

so kami berangkat ke KL (transit dua hari...) 13/14 Februari 2010 kami ke KL...tinggal 2 hari kat Quality Hotel Kuala Lumpur. Sempat jugak beli2 barang... then pada 16 Februari kami berangkat ke Jeddah transit satu jam di Riyadh....terus ke Jeddah...sepanjang perjalanan aku tak tido....best! men game ngan ayah pun ade.ahahaha...

sampai2 dah nak tgh mlm...seronok...tengok baitullah buat pertama kali...sebak.

then kami pun pergi ke Taif, day trip je...

Guess what, aku sambut hari jadi kat Mekah ngan mak ayah je...best sangat2!

lepas seminggu, kami ke Madinah pulak....pastu pergi semalam kat al-Ula...utara Madinah. sebelum balik ke Jeddah then, balik ke Malaysia....sambung lagi cuti seminggu kat KL....g genting ngan sunway lagoon.ahahahaha....sakan je kan?

RESULT STPM

mcm yg aku jangkakan, aku takkan dapat result yg baik....tapi dulu aku duduk je kan...ehehe...

UITM DI HATIKU

aku dapat masuk uitm!! diploma perakaunan...tiga tahun...ahaha

ROOMMATE KESAYANGAN

jumpa ngan 'adik'2 ku....Lala, Fitty ngan Dayang...best! rindu diorang

CUTI2 KL...

cuti sakan ngan keluarga...

simple update

2010-11-01T14:43:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

Hey ya'al...

Hehehe...feels like it's been ages since i've updated this blog of mine despite the fact that it's only a few weeks passed. Anyway, i'm having my final for these few weeks. Just sat for my CTU and BEL papers (CTU something to do with basic Islamic knowledge, last weds and bel almost like english....actually, it is english last friday). Hope my answers were correct and hope i can get an A for each. Mat112 is coming this wednesday. Haven't really revise though. but hopefully i can finish everything within one day. Just simple exercises could do. I've done some here back home. and my AIS130 (computer stuffs) will be this saturday. Mom's going to KL for the weekend. My aunt is getting maaried. so i'm not coming home either. like mu AIS130 is ON the weekend! MY GOD!

i was supposed to pack my stuff to get back to college around 4. haiz!! what am i doing????? huhuhu....anyway, cought a little flu now, not feeling that good though. just wanna clear things up, i'm now officially over with whatever happened last2/3 weeks. as the matter of fact i can say that now, i am sure enough that i am not ready for any relationship to start or to get back. my affairs now are with my beloved books and notes and solely, with my love novels....

huhuhu...can't seem to stop sneezing....so, i'd better get going and get ready to head back to campus....will update once i've had the time, mood and stuff to update...ehehehe....

see ya soon!

p/s: good luck to all those who are seating for final exam, especially to UiTM students.ehehehehe

unpredictable encounter but an unforgettable moment

2010-10-10T21:38:00.010+08:00

people say life is unpredictable. it doesn't matter when there are people who say that it is. but for me, this last week was surely a proof that MY life is not predictable at all. I thought it'll be as usual. ME, with my pack schedule...meetings could lasts up til 12 midnight. ME, keeping myself up til 4am. ME, going to classes and doing homeworks.ME washing stuff n folding stuff. OK....i don't know anything....haiz! But one thing for sure, tersangatlah tired by the end of last week, and still do now though. FYI, I'm putting on my headphone and the music is blaring at the top volume just to make sure i don't hear anything else than my playlist...not even my roommates voices. Like, I'm not even in the mood to talk anymore. Don't ask, I just don't know. I thought of going to the discussion room downstairs or to the TV room. But I just forget about it, perhaps too lazy to walk out. ahaha...duh!

Monday started just fine...I had a lot of rest but doubt that it is plenty for me. The only class i had on Monday was AIS130 at 4 other than that, I had the whole day for myself. Tuesday, as usual, I got the whole day to leisure and BEL120 is from 2 til 4. It's the usual stuff that I do. The USUAL...! But something happened to me that particular day. As unpredicted and unforeseen as it is, the ghost form my past came back and it is just too scary to even think that it is real.

Apapun, mmg scary giler. Aku tak sangka jumpa dia sekarang kat tempat nih, dalam keadaan ni. Pada saat hati nih dah hampir dapat lupakan, kenapa mesti datang balik? Ujian ke? Dugaan ke? Tak tau ape aku nak cakap. Aku masih fikir sampai sekarang, apa yang jadik hari tuh betul ke?Aku mmg LOST betul2. Aku sampai ingat aku jumpa 'hantu' sebab mmg susah nak percaya sampai rasa cam dalam drama pulak.

Aku baru je keluar dari library sebab buat projek AIS130 lab,presentation yang sepatutnya kitorang buat untuk this coming week. Since Gba ngan Yayan dah balik, so aku tinggal sorang. Aku lapar, so aku keluar la...as usual, ngan barang aku yang sememangnya berlambak. Bila keluar dari library suddenly aku rasa happy kejap. I didn't look seideways or anything, n mmg dah cara aku jalan, melurus melulu je...ahaha...ehem. Aku terus pergi ke tempat simpan barang and stuff my things into the big bulky bag yang mmg aku suka.... since banyak sangat barang yang aku nak simpan, aku letakla atas lantai jap.Masa tu, ramai la jugak orang lalu lalang and pergi ke tempat simpan barang tuh. Almaklumla, masa lunch, mesti la semua orang nak pergi makan kan? So, aku cepatkan sikit 'kerja2' mnyimpan tuh, bila berdiri, aku ato la ckit tdung...hari tuh pun mmg panas jugak. Aku ato punya ato, bila aku pusing, aku tak langsung tgk ke depan, tapi mata seyh gaak tgk lantai sebab tgh syiok ato tudung la katakan. Bila aku angkat je muka, aku tgk dia. Masih ngan senyuman dia tuh, yang selalu dia bagi kat aku dulu...masa dulu2 la.... tiba2 hati nih, rasa cam remuk ckit. Memang nervous giler bila jumpa. aku rasa cam kelu je lidah nih. Tapi aku sempat lagi cover supaya tak nampak sangat.

Aku tanya dia wat apa kat cnih? Dia kata dia melepak je. Aku ok kan aje la yang dapat. Dia skarang nih dah jadi M.A. something yang aku ingat nak jadi bila aku lupakan hasrat nak amik medic dulu. Dia siap tengah praktikal lagi. Dia tak berubah sangat. Masih macam yang aku pernah sukan n sayang dulu. Tapi tu luarannya...hati dia aku dah tak tau lagi la skarang nih cam mana. MMg aku rindu kat dia... tapi seriously, aku dah move on. Tapi, tak sangka aku jmpa ngan dia lagi. Dalam keadaan aku rasa cam dah bersedia untuk cari orang lain.

Memangla aku tak jmpa lagi. Tapi hati nih ada jugakla terpaut ngan seseorang yang aku rasa tak patut aku suka. Yup, he's my friend. The the ghost that I'm talking about is someone i used to love from the past. I can't believe my own eyes. I really misssed him. Even now, sekadar kawan je. Aku dah tawar hati nak lebih dari tuh. Biarla dia dengan hidup dia. Semua benda nak jadik minggu nih. Kenapa? Aku mmg tak dapat fokus sebab terlalu terkejut ngan benda nih. Malam before tuh aku bergadoh ngan kawan aku, sampai la nih dia tak reply2 mesej aku hantaq. Apsal la dia dok merajok lama kat aku? Kalau aku yang merajuk boleh pulak dia pujuk, tak nak kita nih bermusuh. La nih, dia pulak yang terbalik.

Dalam ke'busy'an aku nak melayan segala ujian ngan segala pertandingan ngan segala event dalam minggu nih, benda2 macam nih jugak yang datang. Apsal? Dugaan ALLAH kat aku ka?

Aku rasa nak hilangkan semua sedih kat hati nih ngan ketawa n senyum, sebab bila aku marah, aku akan balit teringatkan kat dia. aku tak nak marah, aku tak nak sedih...aku nak kalau berjumpa pun ngan dia, aku tak la se-'shock' cam nih. aku nak ready. Boleh?

Aku dah tak tau nak wat cam mana lagi. Esok aku test. Langsung aku takda semangat...sebab aku skarang nih, letih sangat. Bukan fizikal yang penat, tapi otak aku nih penat...sebab ligat sangat berfikir...meh, cari jalan nak rileks.

Aku rasa, sampai cnih je aku update blog nih. Nanti2 aku update sal SIFE COMPETITION lak kayh.ehehehe.

L.O.V.E YOU...

AN OUTING WITH CLASSMATES:: BERBUKA PUASA KAT SCR,D.I.

2010-09-08T03:16:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

Ha...nih yg aku dok janji dari post yang lepas tuh. aku stakat nih on9 jer...tapi bila on9 terlupa pulak nak update sal benda tuh.

Anyway, nih aku upload outing aku ngan classmates ACD1A5 (D.I.A. UiTM Kota Samarahan Julai 2010) <-- hah! amik kau! Sebeno2nyer, aku mmg tringin nak ajak bebudak nih g kuar berbuka puasa. Tapi asyik tak dapat je. Adoooohai. So, memandangkan Iqbal ngan Hakim bagitau Ajibah nak ajak kitorang berbuka sama, aku pown up to the invitation (btol ke nih aku pakai?) ahaha. So aku cancel plan nak balik Kuching petang Jumaat tuh and tukar ke pagi Sabtu. Aku dah semangat nak balik dah...ahaha...tapi takpe, bukan selalu kuar ngan diorang nih. ahaha.

So, kitorang pun bincang punya bincang, SCR jadik pilihan (sebeno nye aku hengat nak makan kat Pizza Hut, tapi susah gak kalau org tak pat g buat masa skarang nih...iyela, dah dkt nak raye, aku sendiri pown takder fulus weii!) Janji kat diorang pukul 5 jmpa. So yg pompuan sumer berkumpul kat bawah blok aku jalan sama2. Wehehehe.....'pemandangan' yg mmg susah nak tgk.ehehe. So jmpa ngan bebudak lelaki kat SCR je...

Aku sebenarnya nak upload gambar kitorang kat cnie...tapi tak tau lak knapa tak leh...haiz...pelik bin ajaib aku ngan benda nih...tape...aku cuba test try lagik skalik kayh...nanti aku post lagi.

BALIK R.A.Y.A!!

2010-09-04T06:46:00.005+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

ehhehhe....ALHAMDULILLAH...nampaknya hari ni aku balik rumah da....ehehe...tak sabar nak balik... (cheywah!! baru minggu lepas balik rumah...nih dah semangat nak raya nih...ehehe). sepatutnya aku balik semalam lagi.tapi memandangkan kawan2 classmates dah ajak berbuka sama, aku ikut je la...iyelah, diorang kan nak balik raya.ramiay pulak yang balik jaoh2. tak salah le kan.

nanti aku postkan gambar2 kitorang malam tadi.skarang nih aku masih kat kolej.so takder pulak bawak wayar nak transfer gambar dari hp. balik karang aku letak le ye...aku skarang nih pun tgh on9 guna netbook fit (roomate aku) nih, broadband nih pon ain (family Kadet Bomba) nyer.

apepon, isnin karang aku kene gakk balik U kejap. Coz kelas aku masih lagi isnin nanti. ada kelas AIS130 je tinggal. sebab takder kelas ganti.lagipun, isnin tuh aku ada speaking test BEL120. kejap je...mak aku insist nak aku pulang hari isnin tuh jugak. hari nih kakak aku pun sampai dari Miri..yeyeh....leh jmpa anak sedara aku...cecece...nak mintak blanja raya dari kakak aku lak.wehehehe.

ALHAMDULILLAH jualan kitorang seroomtae nih maju la jugak. jualan cronflakes yang berkembang jadi jualan cookies ngan cornflakes berkacang dalam botol pun dah boleh tahan majunyer. stok untuk minggu nih pun dah habis. ada terima tempahan dari orang pulak tuh. Ahlamdulillah.dah rezeki namanya. isnin karang baru le dapat duitnyer....sempat le aku merasa duit penat lelah berdagang nih. kalau bisnes membisnes nih aku mmg suka la.dari jualan kat blok 2 Sri Gading nih, aku ngan kawan aku dah siap jual sampai ke Blok 3 n aku dah ada planggan dari blok 1 Sri Gading. Peminat chocolate cookies pun da ada kat Sri Mulu. Thanks guys for being so supportive!! ehehehe. dapat la aku lepas belanja ckit karang nak beli barang. duit untuk blanja raya yg mak aku bagi pun tak lepas sebab aku guna untuk belanja harian kat kolej nih. nak kene mintak dari sumber lain pulak.ahahaha.

aku rasa balik2 nih, msti banyak bende yg nak aku buat.takper2.cian gak ngan mak bapak aku sebab selalunya aku yg tolong kemas.tapi tahun nih, dah dekat nak raya baru aku pat wat. balik hujung minggu pun aku jarang nak lepas...nasib baik kelas habis awal.dapat advance seminggu aku balik.aku plan nak wat persiapan best raya nih, ntah naper aku semangat lak jadiknya.

balik raya nih, aku pack barang habis.macam nak cuti semester je.sedangkan cuti dua minggu je pon.ahahahaha. semua benda aku nak bawak balik. kasut2 suma aku angkut skali. ahaha...takper2. nanti balik Kolej aku angkut le balik kan??? ahahaha...

ok2....dah nak balik dah nih. nak berkemas dulu...karang kalau dah sampai rumah aku cuba update lagi blog nih.ahahaha...nih, se'potong' lagu buat korang yg membaca. terimala....

SALAM RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK

2010-08-22T22:13:00.005+08:00

salam...
dah lama rasanya tak update blog nih.bukan rasa je...memang lama pun...mana taknya....kalau da duduk depan nih mesti rasa cam takda idea nak tulis apa....
tapi dah lama tak on9...tiba2 rasa cam banyak pulak benda yg nak sangat aku ceritakan...
hari tuh before masuk U aku nak sangat tulis pasal 'kembara' aku menunaikan umrah dan ziarah...nak share ngan korang sume...tapi, bila aku bukak je lappy,rasa malas nak karang ayat...aiseh...
lupa nak bagitau...aku skarang nih dah masuk UITM, Kampus KOTA SAMARAHAN. aku amik DIPLOMA PERAKAUNAN....knape?tekejut ke kawan2 ku yg kenal ngan aku?

i ye la...dulu aku nih nak sangat jadi doktor kan...tetiba aku nak amik perakaunan pulak...jaoh gak menyimpang tuh.

hurm apa pun....aku dah mula rasa selesa ngan pilihan aku nih...walaupun hati nih masih lagi gatal nak blaja biologi...huhuhu.....

nanti free2 aku crita2 kat korang yeh...ehehe...skarang nih dah lewat gak...aku bukan kat bilik nih.kat youth floor...tetiba ada niat nak on9 malam nih...ahaha...mentang2 test dah habis pagi tadi... (test hari ahad...1st time tuh!!). room mate aku dah panggil balik bilik dah...huhuhu....esok kelas kol 10 pagi...kelas BEL120 lagi tuh...ehehe...esok depa nak sahur lagi wah2...

opss...before aku lupa...aku nak ucapkan SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK.

Sleepless in...Sarawak?

2010-01-30T02:03:00.003+08:00

Salam n Hye...

Okay...so here's the case. I realised since the holiday had started, I actually acquired a case of staying awake during the night. I couldn't say that it's insomnia, because I do sleep but it's not the correct time. My behavior nowadays is almost similar to a nocturnal animal, in my case however, I'm a HUMAN.

Yesterday (Friday) proved that what I tried to put as reasoning to what's going on with me now. I'm tired and sleepy during the day, but I am almost fully active during the night time. HAIYAH!! Okay, before I might just say that this is NORMAL. Everybody do tend to not sleep during the night and play games, read books or just to chat with friends. But they do sleep and during the morning they'll still be quite OK. Sleepiness is nothing odd when you spent a sleepless night doing something that might or might not benefit you.

We're going to have a 'small' kenduri today, and I was supposed to be cleaning stuff and keeping stuff with my dad as usual to clear and tidy the house. If I have the time, I'll help my mom with the cookings sometimes (not that I'm that a good cook though). But for this whole week, I kind of felt like I'm soo tired during the day. Often wakes up late and after a few awake hours, I do felt asleep again. But when it comes during the night, I felt kind of active. I do more activities,and I talk a lot some nights. As days goes by since the beginning of my holiday (LONG HOLIDAY), I do tend to sleep more. Sometimes I can't believe I do so too! It's like addicting to sleep. Haiz!

This is a case of SLEEPLESS in ... SARAWAK. ahahhaa. I think I might have changed my bilogical clock bit by bit when I started to stay late at night to get online. EHEHE...I think I nee to adjust that. I do heard somewhere that it's not healthy to be sleepless during the hours when you're supposed to be sleeping because it may ended up with you being so restless and tired and unable to perform stuff as you wished you can. So peeps, tr not to get sleepless during the night. It can turn out to be pretty bad for you.

It's 2.35am Saturday now. I'd better hit the sack. There's stil a lot more to do before the keduri tomorrow. Cherrios everyone and have a great weekend!

P/S:: Looking at how my house after we put away the furnitures, I wonder if that's the way it'll look like when we have 'BIGGER' official kenduri...ehehehe...

NEW SIDE LINK OPENED

2010-01-27T03:09:00.004+08:00

HERE'S A NEW SITE I'VE PUT UP FOR REVIEWS (MOVIES, SONGS, BOOKS AND WHATEVER THAT I CAN REVIEW ON...EHEHE...) HAVE FUN! AND PLEASE DO LEAVE COMMENTS ON THE TAG BOARD! THANKS!

LIFE: AS YOU LIKE IT <--(CLICK HERE)

DO FEEL BLESSED...

2010-01-17T05:06:00.005+08:00

SALAM & hye! =)

Here's something that I have been trying to put up here. Sorry for the late post. I don't know why every time I want to update this blog I just couldn't. But anyway, anyhow, here's what I've come up with. Since my blog skin has quite a small part for the blog content, and I don't want visitors to keep on scrolling down just to watch the photos, so I put the photos of the Damai Trip all in a slide show instead. Owh yeah, I forgot...this is what I've promised in my previous post. So, anyone who just happens to visit (no matter who you are => ) have fun and feel free to leave a message on the TAG tab. =)

These were the snapshots I got (I'm just able to use my Nokia HP with a very low MP. so sorry bout that) from the trip for St.Thomas' Kuching Prefects batch 08/09. We left Kuching on December 15, 2009. Most of us were on the bus. There are some who insisted of driving themselves. Do you realise that if you go anywhere, the trip TO the place felt so long compared to the trip FROM the destination? Hahahaha....I know...I know...it's common.

We actually departed much too early than we're supposed to I guess. But lucky for us, the hotel reception called and said that we could check-in early and the rooms were ready (yay!!) So, we arrived some time around 10.00 am or so. We checked-in, and heads off to our own rooms. I shared the rooms with Shin Hung and Esther. Nice roomates. ahaha. Sherena (did i spelled this correctly??) came in later that nite, since she was supposed to share her room with the teacher and apparently by the time she arrived, the teacher was asleep, she joined our roon instead. OK, the combination of the four of us in the room was kind of funny for me. HAHAHA.

Finished checkng the room, we went for our lunch at the Cultural Village. I managed to take some photos there with Joan, Azie, Tam2, Mon2, Daryl n Azra. Got my hands cut by the wood pillar, and then...err...heads back to the hotel. The others went for swimming. I can't since the adult swimming pool forbids those in full clothes. So I went to the beach, relaxing and reading my Nicholas Spark's 'The Notebook', enjoying the sun and my NIPS (nice choc n nuts!) and my REVIVE!! I think nobody knows my whereabout that day...wait...I think they don't most of the time! nGahahaha.

The second day, I woke up early...because I really want to see the sunrise on the beach. I forgot that we can't see it since the location isn't the exact degree where we could see the sun rise or the sun set! HAIYAH! But anyway, I enjoyed watching the break of the dawn. It's refreshing and romantic all the same! AHAH.

I think I did enjoyed myself a lot throughout the trip. I did almost exactly what I've been anticipated to do since school days. Just chilli', sitting by the beach, watching the sea with the waves came crushing the rocks and the sands underneath. There's a sense of familiarity and calmness, just listening to the sounds of the waves, you're in your own world, safe and secured.

I did a lot of thinking when I'm out alone as well. I thought of how life would be if I didn't take the path I chose. I thought of the friends I made throughout these years. How I missed my old friends and wished they they'd remember me. I thought of HIM a lot too...and of 'him'. Weird enough that I actually thought of 'him' then.

I don't know how he came into the picture, but he's there, in my mind.But then, when I decided, I have to let him go for good, I did. I could say that now, I felt much more freed than I did before. At the same time, I thanked ALLAH that HE gave me chances to meet new people who might just somehow opened my heart that had broken before for another person. I musn't say that it's love, coz I know, that it's not of that. But it's the companionship that I seek for that HE granted me my wish, to meet this someone who had helped me to settle the emotions I'm in.

The second day when we're on the beach, I didn't swim or anything, but instead I walked the beachside playing with the water and feeling the waves touching my skin. I wrote my name further away from the waves so that it'll not be wiped away. But I wrote their names while thinking happy thoughts i shared with them, near the waves so that the waves will take them away. Hoping (though jokingly) that somehow they'll call me or text me soon. I didn't realised that the 'soon' that I wished actually came sooner than I thougt! He texted me that nite, so as the other one. By then I knew, ALLAH heard my prayers, and I'm gratefull that HE granted my wish.

We had our last prefects' dinner BBQ style the last night we're there. Yummie food! Well, supposed to be yummie when you've paid RM 80 per pax! All in all, satisfying. Since I don't go for groupie stuff, I actually spend the night alone. I did went with some peeps sitting at the lobby though. Then someting funny happened, embarassing I guess, ahahaa. Nice one. But I left a couple of minutes later and went to the outdoor sitting area of the bar. All by myself, listening to the waves at night. It's nice. Then about almost 10.30pm, I walked back to the room and since some of my room-peeps were still awake n was playing uno, I just joined in! ahaha...But I ended up sleeping on the bed instead. LOLS!

I didn't go for a swim coz of several reasons, and don't know how to swim is one of them. But on the last day, before we left the resort, I went to the kiddies pool which they also called it Family Pool (if I'm not mistaken). I went to the area where the max depth is on 0.5m since they forbid fully clothed people to go anywhere near the 1.0-1.5m side. sheesh! But guess what, I learned how to swim!! It might not be perfect strokes though, but it's safe to say that I can float myself and I can swim...a bit, but without assistance!! HAHAHA!!

December 17, 2009. We gathered at the lobby around 11 am or so. It's time to leave Damai Puri which actually meant, it's time to say our goodbyes to everyone. We took some photos together (sorry the photos weren't in the slides) and have a little chit chat. By then, I got a feeling that im going to miss everybody, especially those who were dear to me. I want to cry. Believe me, I really do. But crying isn't going to stop the time from ticking. So I saved it for some other time. After checking-out, most of us got on the bus and bid our farewell to Damai Puri, friends and bring home the memories that will lasts.

...love, hugs and kisses...
>I.Z.Z.I.E.<

ANOTHER SIDE-BLOG WILL BE PUBLISHED =)

2010-01-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

HEY YA'AL!~
salam.it's been a while since i last updated this blog.I know, sorry for that. Once, I can say the school stuff kept me away from having the time to sit and stare and compose the 'music' on these sheets of blank pages.ahaha. But now, despite the ample time to pamper myself and to do stuff that I didn't get the time to do it then, I still can't update THIS!! haiyah!

So anyway,I'm planning of publishing another blog to post stuffs specifically on reviews. Make it of movies, songs, books, cafe's and etc, it will all be compiled and put into one blog. I haven't got a single idea on what to call it but let's just give me sometime to figure that one out. Hope it'll work well later. So, wait up for the new bog peeps. Will link it here later.

See ya when i see ya!

P/S:: will be posting the stuff on our PREFECTS' TRIP T DAMAI LATER. =)

xoxo

6 DOWN, 2 TO GO...

2009-12-08T22:54:00.003+08:00

P.A. paper tomorrow.Hope I can score this. I was like..."this is my chance...this is my chance"...huhuhe..ok this post rite here, clearly shows that i know people don't read this blog so i can post stupid/unnecessary things as much as i want to...HAHAHA!

OMG! i can't believe that STPM is going to be over in less than 70 hours!!! yay! ok, i shouldn't be to happy about it. i know...i know.but hey.it's like OMG! my freedom!!! (then i started to her the song 'FREEDOOM...FREEDOOM!!!" in my head ahahaha). I was like, yay..tonnes of things i can do now! just to start the endless (almost!) list of FREEDOOM, my peeps and i planned a day out.supposed to be right after the last paper (CHEMS) this thursday.just going out for bowling and lunch...or then movies...or even karaoke (yes!3x....i know...weird huh..me? going to karaoke??) ahahaha.but since S.K. (OUR beloved head boy) said we might be going to Damai Puri to check on everything and to confirm the trip, so I asked the gurls if we could postpone it to Friday instead. So, let's pray that it's still going on.

'HIS' paper finished today. The others still have anothe paper (if i'm not mistaken) this Thurs. wohoo...nice for him...OMG! i wish i can be a sweet 17, form 5 girl again...coz it's still a lot easier then.no stress, no crying, no knocking your head on the table when you don't understand. but then, if i go back to those years, i might've been ALONE again.yeah...i haven't really got any friends back then. those who claimed to be my besties weren't that close to me either. is it just me...or we're actually not the best friend type?) well, anyway, who cares.not that they thought of me or whatever. lucky that i met my friends now. thought we might not be the BEST besties or anything but they're always there when i need them. even when i ask stupid questions. and YES, we always share private girl talks...and i DO felt free to say anything i want. which in turn makes it much more fun! (like, who the heck sing karaoke with you during their visit on HARI RAYA??? yep...those were the people!)

haiyah! back to the story. hurm...he didn't text me tonite though.but hey, maybe he;s been going out with his family...since he's FREE now. ahaha. but surprisingly i don't try to sms him tonight.probably after the messages that were coming to and fro til the wee hour in the morning for the past few days! (nessie, you know who i meant....)

i can't wait to go to the beach next week. well, i planned to have my small picnic there. just me alone...for my ME time. a small basket of fod and a nice book to read on the beach. Owh...yeah, i bought Nicholas Sparks's The Notebook. I know, that's sooo last season...like waaaayyy last seasonS.but i just found it and yes, i'm still at the beginning of my reading. It's nicer to read once i've sat for the last wo papers.let's just hope i'm okay this time.

ok people.i'd better get going now.stil have a few sets of things to settle. see ya!! (to who ever am i talking to? <(-_-)> )

PISSED OFF! (SHUT UP, I'M TRYING TO THINK!)

2009-12-07T01:52:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah. What happened to me? I felt like a dumb ass reading the signage along the streets with this Bio and Chem books. This isn't going as pretty as I thought it would be. I can assure you that my mind is so full of thinking that it just pulled out a 'street' demonstration of no-show/no-'digesting' of any reading substances for almost the whole week! OK, what did I do wrong here? After Maths T's paper last Tuesday, everything looks okay. I think! But then suddenly I couldn't concentrate to whatever things that I tried to read. Not even the stuff in FACEBOOK! My FB peeps, to tell you the truth, I don't really understand what i read nowadays. So, what I did was, pop-up the chat box and try to make a decent conversation or even just simply comment whatever that is in my head that right very second. So sorry if any of you were offended or anything.

OMG! I just felt like this is so unbearable! I sat for almost an hour with my book wide open and read ONE sentence for almost a quarter of that ONE hour just to understand it! URGHH!!! Blame it on myself I guess coz i couldn't even understand that even though I went through that same thing over and over and OVER AGAIN! What am I? A DUMB??? Sheesh!

Adehs...and guess what's the 'GOOD' new about it....THE PAPER IS TOMORROW AND THE NEXT 2 DAYS!!! Again, I'm seriously asking. WHAT THE HECK DID I DO WRONG????

S.L.E.E.P.Y. S.A.T.U.R.D.A.Y.

2009-12-05T16:34:00.003+08:00

Hye...

It's SATURDAY again. Mom woke me up telling me to take a bath and get prepared, daddy decided to have breakfast out today. Actually, it's the 'routine' for weekends that we'll have our breakfast with either Dosai or Nann bread. As usual I just got to have my Roti Planta (Canai Bread with Planta/Butter & Sugar) and Teh Tarik (Pulled-tea).

Dad said he want to look for the handy magnifying glass. Mind me, he had been looking for the same thing since last week but with no success. He found one but it's only one...and broken. So he decided not to purchase it anyway. I felt kind of sleepy the whole morning. I mean, who wont be sleepy if you only spent like 5 hours of sleep...well, okay, there are people who could. But I surely could not! My sleep were usually the long one...as in more than 5 hours.Yea, I know, I slept like babies do.

So, anyway, we went from one place to another buying some groceries stuff and I got some 'essentials' as well. I tried reading my P.A. notes in the car but felt so sleepy that struggle to get my eyes wide open. My...my.I thought of buying black long pants for the Febs trip. But then it rained, and since I'm not in the mood of shopping in the rain, I decided not to, but instead bought myself a nice...ehem...something.(HAHA...)

We stopped by UPWELL Kubah Area, mom want to show me the pants that she saw yesterday.OMG, I'm so not interested to see it today, but I still drag myself so the Ladies department and 'have a look' (this always ended up with me looking at stuff without any reaction or feelings...ahaha). One thing that did made me happy though, okay2 it's two things, were that I had a nice breakfast AND he replied my text. Huhue...it's nice even though we're actually texting craps that if you think or read it, it's the same thing but said in different way and kept on repeating...but he didn't mind at all, neither do I! :)

Mom was hungry so she said she want to buy burger. But dad suggest that we have our lunch at the BIMMERS Cafeteria. I was okay with it, and so was mom. So we went. Dad ordered chicken rice and mom, Ayam Penyet. I don't feel like I want to have anything, so mom said we could share the Ayam Penyet.

OMG! What happened to Bimmer's service?? It sucks! Like really slow and the waiters (or the stall people inside the cafeteria- we're sitting outside) were talking crap, and shouting at the top of their lungs. I felt like shouting back, curse them if I can. But i don't want to be 'rude' myself. Guess what, we the waitress took our order, she actually lean onto the table 'showing' her BUTT to the next table.Sheesh! What kind of service is that?? The waitress is one thing, next was that the food service sucks (if I may say) too. It was soo slow that I thought they've forgotten that we've placed orders. When I look at the girls face, she looks like she want to fell asleep while garnishing the food. For dad's Nasi Ayam, we waited for almost half an hour! Guess how long mom's Ayam Penyet took t be served...almost 45 minutes! (I think, coz it's really2 long). PLUS, the chicken hasn't even been thoroughly cooked yet! Mom asked the person who delivered to cook it again. And to think that we paid RM 6.00 for that?? Sheesh!

OK, so maybe that stall just started their biz for today, and hasn't prepared anything yet, but hullo??? logically, if you own a stall, you could at least prepared a few half cooked fried chicken so that if people place an order, you won't take too long to cook it! That's the way you run a biz!

To tell you the truth, I AM DISAPPOINTED with their service. I used to like it when they're just starting the cafeteria not long ago. The service were fast and the cafe was clean, the waitress and waitresses were great and quick. But now? WHAT HAPPENED BIMMERS?

So now, I'm home. Mom baked a cake right after we reached home. As usual, well it's usual for kids le...remember when your mom bake a cake when you're little you always scraped some of the uncooked cake mix and just lick it? I did that just now. I asked mom if I could get sme of the cake mix later as in just left me some of the mix when we put it in the baking tin. So she left some unscraped mix and left it aside. So, I enjoyed myself with those uncooked mixed, icking it on my fingers and the scrapper. Huhhue! Felt like a little kid again!

OK, that's all for now. Mom and dad are calling for me so we could prepare the steak together. HAHAHA.

Till then...xoxo! :)

MULTITASKING IS SO HARD! (-.-)

2009-12-04T15:07:00.005+08:00

Ya Allah. I don't know what happened to me recently. I mean, my spirit is so low now that I don't even feel like reading or doing anything. This totally sucks, and to make things 'better' it THE BIG EXAM WEEKS. Supposedly a very crucial time for me to get serious in my revisions. But, na'ah. Don't get me wrong. It's not like I'm totally abandoning everything, like I just don't care about studies and all. It's just that, I felt so burdened with all these stuff that I do sometimes felt like I'm going NUTS! All that I did in these couple of days were, just sitting around, lazily watch TV, flip to different channels as much as I can. Plus, I ate A LOT of sugary food, yes3, more cholesterol being dumped into my belly to be churned and soon, make me FAT!

I told myself the other night that i want to do some chores around the house, including cleaning my room. It's a mess now though coz most of the time i do felt helpless in a way that i couldn't arrange everything and put stuff back to their own respective places. Sheesh! I do felt like a useless bum.Owh MY GOD, i do hope that my room looks like this...

But i still love my room though. Especially with a hand painted 'skies' that my dad did all by himself. That's another advantage of being a Museum Curator's daughter, the paintings we're always exclusive for you. Talking bout bedrooms, mine was just simple typical teens room. I appreciate the personal touches that my dad did (i helped him too!). We painted the whole room ourselves, and yes, no need for a contractor or an interior designer to do so. (No offense, i DO love those works of interior designers they just have the immaculate designs for each and every styles they have) My bed was an iron Double-Decker, which my mom and dad bought when i go razy with that type of beds when I'm still a seven years old. However, only the bottom part is occupied...since I'm the only one!HAHA.

But though it may be regular or typical, it is complete with all the things that i would need. From a simple side table that my dad build, to electronics gadgets. I just love being in this roms that i spent most of my times nowadays sitting here and just think or daydream.That's why i am now so desperate to tidy up my room.Actualy, I partialy cleaned and tidied it all up a few weeks ago. But that's for only half of the room. Now i need to do the other half. Which is the tricky part, cos the other half would be my so-called study table and book rack. OH NO! A lot of work to do, and i haven't even started anything yet aside from bringing more and more stuff in! Even the clean laundries were still in the basket waiting to be folded and put into the closet. HAIYAH!!

>WALKING AWAY FROM THE LAPPY SO THAT I CAN GET BACK TO WORK...WELL, TRYING TO!<

SO SEE YOU GUYS LATER...LITERALLY..ADEHS.

ALHAMDULILLAH...

2009-12-03T02:46:00.002+08:00

Salam & hye everybody,

Syukran, at last, i got this blog edited and updated.haha...this is what boredom made me. so i spent the night hunting for some blog skins and all.it's nice tho! but i still need to learn to adjust some parts.but anyway, hope you guys like it.

i put some songs as well. mind me, but two of them were the soundtracks of P/S I Love You.my fave movie of all times! ahaha. well, along with other movies.

ok2...so this is the sign that i'll be back.i dont' know hen yet.but surely as soon as possible.
GOD, doing html really tiring for a first timer huh.

so, tomorrow is another day.insya-ALLAH, i'll be able to do some house chores AND THEN, do some revision. yepp...got it right, my papers ain't completely done yet. i still have to sit for 3 papers. all of then next week. but hey! one paper sat means another paper less! ahaha...
pray for me!

til then,

CHIOAX! xoxo

it took time.

2009-08-16T03:36:00.001+08:00

still struggling to sit and update my blog.will we updated soon (hopefully).

NO EXEMPTION FROM EXAMS!

2009-05-25T19:12:00.011+08:00

This week had been a freakin' tiring week. Lots of thigs to do, and lots of things to settle with. I can't believe everything came crumpling down the hill all at once! There are exam to face, feelings to compose, assignments to fulfil, extra classes to attend and duties to be done. I'm not trying to run away from problems here, but I think I've had it enough!

NO CHEMISTRY WITH CHEMISTRY

YES! No doubt about it though. There's nothing that I could do to cover it up. Chemistry papers were due last Friday and Saturday. MY GOD! It's killin' me! I was like darn blur whenever I tried to understand the concepts of the lessons. DUH!! In the end it made me feel kind of SILLY.

So, yes I've got to admit that I'm a bit dimwit about CHEMISTRY. Read the question paper, and a BIG question mark popped out of my 'spacious' blurred head. OKAY! I know, i'm going to fail this paper...AGAIN! But hey! I'm still trying to make everything well and better time to time. Just need more time. (BUT TIME SURELY FLIES FAST!!!) and i'm not that good in time management. Let's just pray to ALLAH I don't get 0%!!! 15-20% at least. (oooohhhh...pathetic!!). That's what happen when you concentrate on a couple of subjects all at the same millisecond and think too much, plus having flu while sitting for the paper.

p/s: pray hard izzie...pray hard. Chemistry paper made me sleepy...

CAN'T WE JUST SWITH THE TIMETABLES?????

OH NO! How can i be so careless or to describe it better, STUPID! I thought today's paper would be Math T paper 2. But hey! Guess what, it's MATHS T PAPER 1!! God, should I say another bad luck or what?! And all my mind was thinking about for the whole weekend was... "I'VE GOT TO STUDY MATH T PAPER2 THIS WEKEND!!" and hell yeah i kind of did. But darn! It's the wrong paper! What freakin' thing has hapened to me these days??

I came to school, acting like i'm ready for my so-called Math T 2 papers. Sent my bags to the class, chat a bit with my besties, went to the Hall to sign in and then I saw something. S.K.'s holding a paper 1 notes. So, i asks him, coz it's kind of funny seeing other people reading paper 1 notes when you're supposed to do paper 2

. And guess again....yerp, i'm the one fooled. I 'got' the wrong timetable set in mind.

Luckily I'm not as blurred as I did when reading the Chemistry papers. At least i know how to do a couple or two questions. A fair share i hope but I know I've got to do better in the second paper this Thursday.

THE FLU AND I

DON'T WORRY. I'M CLEARED OF H1N1 OR WHATEVER YOU GUYS WERE THINKING ABOUT!

Probably coz of the tense that i'm feeling these few weeks. 'AT LAST' i'm sick. ehehehe...You know what, it's fun sometimes to have someone who would care to ask how you're doing, especially when you're sick or just plain tired.

That's exactly what I wanted. Not to ask for sympathy. Na'ah...NOPE. But hey! It's a girls intuition. (err...did i get that part right?) So, yes, i've been heart broken by the mere fact (which i supposed i knew already!) that the 'guy of my dream' a.k.a. 'my knight-in-the-shining-armour' went out with another girl. OKAY, it's not as if he's going out with me or whatsoever. Freakin' yeah i'm jealous. Who wouldn't be?? So, i ignored him and all..blah blah blah. Who knows, in the end, he's soo sweet that i couldn't endure to just say "HI". A simple, merely a word but yet a word "HI"...ok...not so much of a "HI" it's just a smile (but i dunno if it's sincere or otherwise though...ngahahaha).

When I said I think my flu is getting worst...he said something like..."you've must been playing in the rain thia afternoon.It rained heavily.did you?" WHOAH!! so sweet!ok...ok...i might have been too excited...let me finish it first...ehehe...

so yeah, he was like. "you should have some rest you know..." and so i said it's nothing.it's just a mere flu. i think i'll be ok...but somehow the flu got worse the night and the next day. we did sort of like texting each other and all. he told me to take good care of my self, take meds and all, rest a lot, drink plain water and get well soon. ok, so i was just so flattered that he's that concerned. i know any friends would say that...but NONE OF MY FRIENDS DID! allright...allright...my besties in class DID. thanks dearies!

so when i told him i was in the car on my way home from class having a bun as a lunch instead, he was like..."why buns?". so i told him i felf full and said i don't feel like eating jokingly said that i'm on a diet.hahaha! so he replied, saying that i shouldn't do that, coz i'm sick.needs more energy and all and needs food to get better. SOOO SWEEEETTT!!!!. thanks 'my knight-in-the-shining-armour'.

OK2...i don't want to be so bitchy and all by stealing other girls boyfriend. I'm not that kind of person, believe it or not. I may be 'close' to a couple of boys, and even had a crush on them. But i wouldn't want to be THE other girl. I've been through that already, well, not THE OTHER GIRL, but as THE GIRLFRIEND. I surely did get my heart hurt so bad that i tried not to think of my ex soo much that it hurts more than it should've been. Plus, he didn't even say sorry and meant it for what he did...so as the girl. But no worries, I'm not a girl with THE DEADLY GRUDGE on people. Silly as it may seemed, but i'd prefer to take things seriuosly but not evil. Like my feelings, it's serious, but I know my boundaries.

I'm ok if he just admits that he's out with another girl. But why say she's just a friend when your best friend says she's your girl? was it me that got it wrongly, was it you who sort of like covering your cunning womanizer track or plainly just coz you're secretive. or was it your friends that got it all wrong about you. Hey, the answer were all up to you. You don't explain, I don't complain. But hell no i'm gonna be THE OTHER GIRL if this is what the relationship is heading.

But i HAVE to admit...i do like you. But that's just it. A CRUSH. Only ALLAH know where this is taking us.

EASY ON: ICE CREAM!

ok2...i am a BIG fan of VANILLA soft ice-cream. i am deadly addicted to it... AND he knew about it. A window-shopping evening out with my parents was all that it takes for a mouth watering early dinner of CHICKEN TEPPANYAKI set and yummy SUGARBUN's vanilla ice cream at THE SPRING.

THANKS mama for the long-sleeve pink (huhue...) Blue Toms shirt! Not to forget daddy for helping me picked it. EHEHE...you guys were great!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY AND TEACHER'S DAY!!

I hope i'm not that late foe wishing this..i'll wish again later when i git the time to do so...but for the time being...

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY MAMA!
YOU'RE THE BEST!

and

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL MY GREAT TEACHERS OF

S.R.K ST.MARY'S KUCHING (1997-2002)
KOLEJ D.P.A.H. ABDILLAH, KUCHING (2003-2007)
and
S.M.K. ST.THOMAS, KUCHING (2008-NOW)

SEE YA'AL SOME OTHER TIME!

~::love owes::~
izzie_pu3edah

=chiaox!=

TAK BOLEH KONSENTRET!!!

2009-05-22T00:40:00.007+08:00

Wah! Lama sungguh aku biarkan blog nih bersawang kan...selalu jugak aku tergerak hati nak update blog nih.banyak yan aku kira nak kongsikan kat sini.selama beberapa bulan nih memang banyak events yang aku rasa penting dan menarik.tapi setiap kali aku nak update, mesti ada saja yang ganggu.kalau tak pun, aku hilang mood nak update bila aku memang dah duduk kat depan PC nih.'untung' la malam nih aku tension giler sebab tak dapat nak study.aku tau, sepatutnya aku pegi blaja untuk exam esok.tapi aku langsung tak dapat nak tumpuan perhatian terus! YA ALLAH, kenapa nih??

semalam aku start ngan paper P.A. 2.ALHAMDULILLAH, kira ok larh jugak.hari nih, aku seat untuk paper Chemistry 2 pulak.tapi apa yang aku revise tak masuk kepaLa pun!adoh mak.......macam mana nih.nanti duduk kat meja...tup2, blank pulak kepala otak aku.tak ke naya?!?!

dua minggu belakangan nih, macam2 jadi kat aku.tension nyer!!!aku nak luahkan, tak ada siapa yang dapat selami hati aku masa nih. "teman tapi mesra" aku dah lama tak hubungi aku lagi. busy ke apa ke?aku tak tau.yang aku tau, semenjak dia dah 'berhijrah' nih, dia langsung tak ada sms aku lagi. "sahabat hidup dan matiku" pulak skarang nih memang banyak masalah jugak. kesian larh aku nak ganggu dia.nanti tak cukup ngan masalah dia sendiri, aku pulak bebankan dia ngan masalah aku nih. "kekasih gelapku" pulak, aku tak tau nak cakap apa. sebenarnya dialah yang menyebabkan aku skarang nih bermasalah, walopun dia tak tau semua nih berpunca daripada dia. tension nya aku!!!!!

PART I: AKU NGAN PELAJARAN

minggu lepas memang aku bermasalah. sudahlah aku asyik datang lambat ke sekolah. mana ada Ketua Pengawas macam aku nih! YA ALLAH...apa larh nak jadik kat aku nih?? bila aku dalam kelas, aku rasa letih sesangat sedangkan aku tak buat apa2.ngantok sesangt sedangknaku dah tido lebih daripada cukup malam sebelumnya. nasib baik aku bukan sorang2...ada gakk bebudak len yang macam aku masa tuh.nak tumpukan perhatian kat dalam kelas aku rasa terseksa lakk.rasa macam benda yang keluar daripada mulut cikgu tuh berterbangan kat sekeliling kepala aku nih. nak masuk, tapi processor otak aku tgh busy...lagging.duh!

kenapa larh aku rasa macam tak bedaya sungguh belakangan nih?? kalau nak kata tak rehat, tipu la. rehat aku lebih daripada cukup da. mungkin sebab aku fikir banyak sangat kot.tapi apa plak yang aku fikir??? pertandingan apa semua kan dah habis??

PART II: AKU DAN HATI

minggu nih, hati pulak yang terluka. adohs....tak cukup ngan perkara2 yang buat aku pening, hati pulak buat hal. memang larh aku banyak gelak, banyak senyum belakangan nih, tapi takder sorang pon yang tau aku sebenarnya menangis kat dalam. orang bulleh nampak luar, tapi luka di hati siapa yang tau???

kalau nak crita sal hati nih, sampai bila2 pon tak habis.aku wat stakat nih dulu...nanti aku update lagi.mata dah ngantok, tapi aku masih legi kena revise.so doakan aku larh esok!

SMK ST. THOMAS' FAMILY DAY CUM FOOD AND FUN FAIR 2009

2009-03-31T15:40:00.003+08:00

PROMOTING ST.THOMAS'
FAMILY DAY CUM FOOD AND FUN FAIR 2009!

DATE: 04 APRIL 09 (SATURDAY)

TIME: 8.00AM - 1.00PM

VENUE: SMK ST.THOMAS, KUCHING
(NEARBY FATA HOTEL/MERDEKA PALACE)

ACTIVITIES:

GAMES
LUCKY DRAW
HAUNTED HOUSE
MINI MOVIE PREMIERE
FOOD SALES
JUMBO SALES
MINI EXHIBITIONS

ALL ARE WELCOME!!!

18 going on 19

2009-02-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

tinggal setengah jam aje lagi. . .hurm...tak sangka umur aku nih dah semakin meningkat.memangla tau kita nih makin dewasa. setahun berlalu tak terasa pulak. pejam celik pejam celik 365 hari dah pergi macam tuh aje.

tahun yang sudah memang banyak cabarannya. tahun yang mendatang nih, tak tau pulak macam mana. hurm.kalau nak diikutkan, sepatutnya sekarang nih aku dah masuk Universiti.tapi au ambik jalan jauh. stay tingkatan 6 dan sekarang nih, tengah struggle nak betulkan path aku untuk masa hadapan. kawan-kawan yang lain semuanya dah jauh2. ada yang dulunya rapat, sekarang nih, jauh sangat2. ada yang dulu kenal kita, sekarang dah lupakan kita da. tapi aku tetap aku...takkan aku nak iktu semua org, kan?
kalau orang lain masuk U, mungki perjalanan aku bukan kat situ buat masa ni. aku amik tingkatan 6 pun bersebab. itulah jalan terakhir aku untuk capai apa yang aku inginkan. lepas nih, aku kena cari jalan lain pulak. aku masih berpegang kepada kata2 "takka pernah gagal kalau sentiasa mencuba."

aku masih single. tapi aku rasa macam tak der tunggu sesiapa lagi. mungkin sebab aku realise aku tak perlu tunggu. sebab yang ditunggu2 tuh, tak tunggu aku balik.jadi, tak perlu larh aku nak tunggu macam orang bodoh aje kan?sekarang nih, hati nih, boleh tunggu lagi. tambahan lak, belum masanya aku nak sibukkan diri nih ngan benda2 macam tu.insya-ALLAH, masa aku akan sampai. itu, masa depan lar...

hari aku tido, esok hari aku dah 19 tahun.sekejap aje rasanya hidup nih. aku berazam nak hidup sebaik mungkin setiap saat selama aku masih bernyawa. ALLAH aje yang tau semua tuh. aku akan buat yang terbaik. insya-ALLAH...

esok (22.02) aku nak pergi celebrate my noble 19 ngan kengkawan...i mean, kali nih tak banyak larh kawan2 aku...semuanya dah jaoh.ingt ke tidak kat aku kat sini pun aku tak tau...

takper....i'm still alive...

so...happy birthday kat aku sendiri larh nih.hehehe...

SEDIKIT MOTIVASI UNTUK TATAPAN...

2009-01-07T23:17:00.004+08:00

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

CREDITS TO http://testi.iluvislam.com

A NEW DAY HAS COME...

2009-01-07T22:54:00.002+08:00

SEBELUM TERLUPA...RASANYA MASIH BEUM TERLAMBAT KALAU SAYA NAK UCAPKAN SELAMAT MENYAMBUT MAAL HIJRAH 1430 HIJRAH...

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

...DAN...

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SELAMAT TAHUN BARU 2009 MASIHI!

dah pasang azam baru?saya masih in progress.hehehe...

AZAM BARU EDAH:

1. NAK BELAJAR RAJIN2. sebab selama nih masih tak cukup rajin.
2. NAK JADI LEBIH TERATUR. sebab tahun lepas mmg tak teratur.
3. NAK JADI PEMIMPIN YANG JADIK CONTOH. sebab last year mcm tunggang-terbalik ckit.
4. NAK DATANG AWAL KE SEKOLAH. sebab so far, asyik dtang pukul 7 je...tringin gak nak datang awal giler!
5. NAK KUMPUL DUIT LAGI. sebab hujung tahuh nih panjang ckit cutie nyer.so, nak shopping!
6. NAK WAT STPM BETUL2! kenapa lak yang nih nombor 5???
7. NAK BLAJAR MASAK LAGI. sebab selalu takder masa.
8. NAK BACA LEBIH 50 BUAH BUKU TAHUN NIH. the escapades for me.
9. NAK TUKAR SEBAB TAK NAK TANGGUH2 BUAT KERJA. sebab selalunya saya selalu buat kerja last minute. hah, amik ko!
10. NAK KENAL NGAN KAWAN2 BARU, NAK KENAL CINTA BARU. kawan baru tuh, yang baik2 aje larh.ehehe...ttg cinta tuh lepas stpm la baru pikir.lama lagi kan?hehehe...

tu baru 10 yang dapat dipikirkan.nanti2 la pikir lagi.hehe...

so, apa lagi?pikirkan azam baru anda dan hidupkan hari2 anda dengan keceriaan dan hati yang gembira.sayang semua ciptaan ALLAH banyak laut! err..semesta alam...banyak semesta alam.OK?hehehe...

chiax!

...

2009-01-07T22:43:00.002+08:00

=study mode is on=

will update asap but later2 til i've got the time.

tata!

KEMBALI KE SEKOLAH

2009-01-07T22:10:00.003+08:00

huhuhu..cutie sebulan lebih untuk saya sudah pun berakhir. rasa macam belum lagi bersedia nak kembali ke sekolah.hurm...hampir semua orang macam tuh.agaknya kenapa ya?

tahun nih, tahun penting untuk saya dan sahabat seangkatan.antara perperangan yang penting akan kami tempuhi tahun nih. bukan lagi SPM, nih dah STPM. Ya ALLAH, sekejap aje rasanya hidup nih.pejam celik, pejam celik saya dah pun hampir 19 tahun hidup.huhuhu...dah semakin dewasa. tapi macam mana ya? saya rasa macam budak kecik pulak. kadang-kadang, nak buat ujian macam acuh tak acuh aje. teruknya!!

isnin lepas, saya dah pun secara rasmi bergelar pelajar tingkatan enam atas.wah!!tinggal beberapa bulan lagi giliran saya pulak duduk di kerusi perperiksaan.dah bersedia ke??ntah!! alamak! macam mana ni??bangun2!!

bila balik sekolah mulanya macam takda semangat langsung.tapi ALHAMDULILLAH, skarang nih dah ok sikit.cuma takut sikit larh.banyak yang kene pertimbangkan dan banyak yang nak dilakukan dalam masa beberapa bulan nih.tension jugak.tapi itulah kehidupan.saya tak boleh putus asa walaupun banyak yang kata mustahil kan?kalau berputus asa sekarang, apa la maknanya turun naik tangga sekolah selama lebih 11 tahun nih??sia-sia aje usaha nanti.betul tak?

so for the time being...me and my books and internet connections.prayer fills my soul, and love life?that just need to wait for a little longer.saya tak rasa saya bersedia untuk semua tu.mungkin sebab luka lama masih terasa lagi.ah, tak nak la...nanti lain pulak ceritanya.bottomline is, saya nak focus dulu. cinta-cintun tuh, kalau sesiapa yang ada tuh, nanti-nantilah.mestila kita nak future set up dulu barulah nak sibukkan diri ngan benda2 macam nih.lagi pun, kita nih masih muda.insya-ALLAH, tiba masanya, tiba jugak semua jodoh ngan yang lain2 kan?

ok larh...nak sambung study.banyak lagi nak kene buat.nih pun wat sebab lama dah tak on9.anyways, wish me luck for my skewl days!

tata...

HILARY DUFF - SOMEONE'S WATCHING OVER ME

2008-10-22T21:25:00.001+08:00

Someones Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff

KEM KEPIMPINAN PENGAWAS 2008 KEM ALAPONG, LUNDU

2008-10-13T21:52:00.002+08:00

YA ALLAH, susah betul saya nak bukak page nih untuk update blog saya. COBAAN2...

WAH! lama betul rasanya saya tak update blog nih. hari tuh janji nak update, tapi tak sempat2 jugak. neways, memandangkan saya sengaja melapangkan diri saya daripada semua yang mememingkan kepala, datang pulak mood nak tulis blog.so, saya updatekan yang terbaru larh ya. Tapi yang terbaru nih dikira lama larh jugak...

KEM ALAPONG, LUNDU.

Minggu lepas, 29 Ogos 2008 la...Lembaga Pengawas SMK St. Thomas ke Kem Alapong, Lundu untuk Kem Kepimpinan Pengawas 2008. Saya pun terlibat sama. hehe...mulanya bila cikgu bagitau kami nak ke Kem Alapong.saya tak tau pun ade kem nama tuh wujud. >nampak sangat saya tak pergi kem aper2< style="">

29 Ogos 2008 >HARI PERTAMA<

Pagi tuh, saya bersemangat la jugak. Hari hujan lebat giler.Sabo je lah...jadi, dalam bersiap-siap nak berangkat ke sekolah >dengan beg beso due< style="">

Anyways, kami berangkat pergi ke kem lewat sebab bas satu lagi lambat sampai. Adalah dalam pukul 9.00 lebih pagi macam tuh. Apapun, ALHAMDULILLAH semuanya okay je. Dalam perjalanan tuh, tak der la pulak rasa ngantuknyer. Since, nih first time aku sampai ke Lundu, so might as well aku tengok betul-betul semuanya. Sampai ke pekan Lundu dalam pukul 11.00 pagi macam tuh. Lambat pulak nak cari kedai makan Muslim. Sebab rata-rata kedai makan kat situ rasanya macam tak halal je. Kawan-kawan yang non-Muslim tuh pun, nasib baik paham yang saya cari makanan halal. So, depa pi ikut larh cari tempat makan halal. Da dapat, habisnyer tapau aje larh. Tak makan kat kedai sebab takut lambat pulak. So, menu makan tengah hari saya hari tuh, nasi putih belaukkan ayam masak kicap >kalau tak silap<>

First time datang kat situ. Okay jugak larh first impression nyer. Lepas nyanyian lagu negaraku >Ivan ngan Sze Kai naikan bendera<>

Hehee...swonowk nyer!!! Ehehe... kami diberitahu yang kami akan tinggal di dalam khemah sepanjang kem tuh. Saya ni seronok jugak kalau tinggal dalam khemah. Almaklumlarh, bukannya pernah tingal dalam khemah. So, teringin larh tuh. Khemah puteri ada tiga aje. Dua khemah besar yang rasanya boleh memuatkan dalm lima orang. Khemah yang kecik tuh, cukup larh untuk 3-4 orang >kalau badan kecik larh, macam saya nih<>

Lepas solat Zuhur, kami ada sesi modul petang tuh. Peracangan modul sebenarnya. Tuan Haji Reduan dan fasilitator yang lain berikan kami belon macam-macam warna masa briefing. Kami duduk dalam kumpulan yang belonnyer sama warna. Saya kena belon warna merah bercorak. Anggap kumpulan belang aje larh tuh. Kene pulak sama kumpulan ngan KP.Adehs...KP1 ngan KP2 dalam satu kumpulan...mana aci....ehehe...takper...muehehehe...

Our first projects were the ‘chicken dance’ ngan sorakan kumpulan. Then, menghias meja makan kumpulan. Ehhehe...meja kami mmg kreatif. Ada centre piece...tapi alik2 kumpulan lain ikut sama jugak...tak per...kami siap buat chicken dance ngan sorakan tuh cun pulak. Nasib semua setuju...sebab kumpulan saya tuh tak ramai yang bagi idea. Ada jugak beberapa orang yang pasif...>macam kumpulan lain jugak masalah nyer<>

Habis-habis semuanya, kami ingat nak balik ke kem masing-masing. Tapi fasilitator cakap nak bagi kami ujian pulak. Katanya, kalau kami lulus ujian tuh, puteri >pelajar perempuan<>

Sampai kat satu site tuh, kami berhenti. Kat site nih aje kami boleh tengk bintang yang banyak kat langit tuh. Fasilitator yang ikut serta bahagikan lilin kat kami semua. KECIK je lilin tuh. Cukup2 makan je. Then, mereka suruh kami nyalakan lilin tuh. Jaga jangan sampai padam. Kumpulan saya ngan kumpulan kuning adalah kumpulan yang pertama yang erlepas dari site tuh. Kami berjalan dalam gelap malam...bintang-bintang pun dah makin kelihatan. Dah lama berjalan dengan lilin yang kemakin mengecik tuh, akhirnya sampai jugaklah ke kem. Hehehe...kami berbaris dalam kumpulan, lepas tuh, kami diarahkan tiup lilin tuh sama-sama. Hehehe...seronok...sakit tangan pun seronok jugak. Pengajaran daripada ujian tuh, lilin tuh memberi cahaya kepada kegelapan yang kami harungi. Kami dapat lalui jalan yang gelap gelta tuh ngan bantuan lilin. Macam tuh larh jugak kehidupn nih, akhlak menjadi lilin hidup. Kalau akhlak baik itulah yang jadi lilin sebenar. Pendapat saya pulak, iman dan taqwa itu lilin hidup saya, disinari ngan kepercayaan dan akhlak yang baik, insya-ALLAH segalanya baik.

Apabila semua kumpulan dah sampai baru kami diberitahu apa hadiahnya. Puteri semua diberi ganjaran bilik-bilik hostel!!!!! So, malam tuh dan malam keesokannya, kami tinggal di hostel. Hehehe...seoronok nyer!!! Apabila kami dah dapat tempat di hostel, putera pulak dapatlah merasa tidur dalam khemah dengan selesa sebab tak perlu nak berhimpit-himpit. Hehehe... sebabnya kami diberi ganjaran tuh, fasilitator cakap kami tak merungut apabila diberitahu kami kena tinggal dalam khemah. Hehee...kami sebenarnya tak kisah...ehehehe...Malam tuh, kami semua tidur dalam pukul 2/3.00 pagi. Sempat jugak makan mi Maggi kat dapur dini hari sebab kelaparan ngan Melissa, Shin Hung, Esther, Sheila ngan Cynthia...Haahaha...

30 Ogos 2008 >HARI KEDUA<

Disebabkan ‘kepandaian’ dan kelaparan kami, pagi tuh, kami satu bilik susah nak bangun. Adehs... apa kejadiannya. Ehehehe...apapun, pagi tuh, kami semua tak sempat nak bersihkan diri selepas makan. Opss...secara kronologinya, hari tuh, lepas bangkit aje daripada tidur, Puteri Muslimah semuanya pergi ke surau kem untuk solat Subuh. Usai solat, ada pula tazkirah daripada Cikgu Haji Reduan. Seronok jugak dengar tazkirah tuh. Lepas tuh, kami diarahkan untuk beratur kat depan kem tempat kami mula-mula berkumpul masa sampai kat kem dulu. Pagi tuh, ada fasilitator yang tolong kami buat senaman. Mula-mula paaskan badan, lepas tuh, kami sambung dengan senaman berat sikit. Akhirnya kami buat senaman poco-poco. Ehehehe...bersemangat la jugak bila dapat poco-poco nih. Adehs...Usai senaman, kami semua makan sarapan. Sebelum beredar untuk bersarapan, kami semua diberitahu bahawa kami Cuma diberikan beberapa minit saja untuk bersarapan, lepas tuh terus bersia untuk aktiviti hari tuh. Mulanya kami memang keliru sebab kami cuma ada sekitar 15-20 minit aje untuk bersiap. Ada budak tanya, kami ni tak mandi ker? Sebab kami memang tak sempat nak mandi pun. Tau ape fasilitator tuh cakap???

“Tak payah mandi. Kami mandi waktu aktiviti tu nanti...” dengan selambanya....adehs...

So, kami pun bergerak. Macam biasa, ada saja barang yang perlu saya bawak. Memandangkan Miyeko cakap kami tak perlu bawa pakaian lebih (adehs) sebab kami akan buat aktiviti air berhampiran kem, jadi saya pun tak bawak la baju atau kain. Macam biasa jugak, saya bawak beg yang penuh dengan macam-macam benda. Siap bawak makanan dan berbotol-botol air lagi takut kot-kot kami kelaparan. (ahahahahaha!!!!!) Tapi memang betul pun....Nasib saya bawak air mineral botol besar dan makanan sikit. Sebab bila kami da buat aktiviti-aktiviti tuh, kami semua kelaparan dan kehausan. Habisnya, saya jadik kilang makanan... kami kongsi aje lah munchy’s tuh... ehehehe....Sepanjang perjalanan pergi ke tapak aktiviti tuh, banyak jugak gambar yang kami sempat ambik...walaupun dengan MP4 saya yang tak seberapa tuh, sekurang-kurangnya saya ada jugak ambil foto.....eheh.....

Aktiviti pertama yang kami lakukan ialah membina bentuk dengan pasir sekreatif yang mungkin. Memandangkan nama kumpulan kami nih, belang....nama yang kami berikan adalah MALAYSIA, kami pun bercadang nak buat bendera MALAYSIA. Tapi separuh jalan, pelik pulak jadinya...jadi kami pun tukar idea, buat ’51 TAHUN MERDEKA’...menjadi jugak.....nih......

Ehehe....lepas siap dengan pasir berbentuk tuh, kami buat aktiviti WATER CONFIDENCE. Saya nih, tak pandai berenang. Nervous jugakla rasanya. Kami semua diberikan jaket keselamatan. Susah jugak nak bernafas bila gunakan jaket tuh. Tapi, takper, akhirnya saya tau jugak macam mana nak guna jaket keselamatan pada masa-masa yang memerlukan nanti. Pertama sekali, kami semua berjalan perlahan-lahan menuju ke laut dalam rantaian manusia. Semuanya berpegang tangan untuk keselamatan. Apabila dah sampai ke tengah-tengah air, kira dalam jugak la, kami semua buat bulatan. Dalam panas terik hari tuh, fasilitator tuh, suruh kami relakskan diri dengan terapung secara terlentang. Kami ikut aje. Lepas tuh, kami disuruh pulak terapung secara meniarap....erk...betul ke nih? So, kami terapungla...macam ikan-ikan....adehs. Kemudian, kami diajar cara-cara untuk memusingkan badan untuk telentangkan badan dan meniarap dalam air. Lepas cuba beberapa kali, kami diajar pula cara-cara berenang katak secara meniarap dan menelentang. Huuuuhooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! Saya tau macam mana nak berenang sekarang!!!!!! (sikit-sikit la)....

Lepas dibiarkan berenang sesuka hati, kami kembali dalam bulatan dan main permainan kejar-kejar pulak. Sorang jadik pemangsa, sorang jadik mangsanya mengikut nombor masing-masing. Memandangkan saya nih pendek, kaki pulak tak dapat berdiri dengan betul dalam air yang kira dalam jugak la. Terpaksa pulak fasilitator tuh tukarkan tempat saya ke tempat yang sikit cetek. ADEHS!!! Saya tak berapa pandai nak berenang meniarap...kalau terlentang tuh, saya kuakkan tangan dan kaki, ada jugak bergeraknyer...hehehe...jadi saya tak dapat la tangkap mangsa saya... 10 minit yang bersisa, kami semua dibenarkan berenang sesuka hati. Saya sempat belajar macam mana nak berenang dengan betul...hehehe....JANGAN SIA-SIAKAN PELUANG YANG BAIK OI!!!

Usai buat water confidence, kami buat pulak yang macam daki bukit-turun bukit tuh...alamak, tak tau la pulak namanya...adehs. Tapi seronok! Saya antara yang akhir buat. Ehhehehe....sebab kene bagi peluang kat orang lain dulu. Bak kata Mdm. Jennifer, saya nih badan je kecik, tapi berani jugak buat bende tuh.AHHAHA....rugi owh kalau tak buat!!!Saya takkan lepaskan peluang kalau ada aktiviti lasak nih....ehehe...menimba ilmu la katakan. Ada pulak kemalangan masa saya tengah buat tuh, saya jatuh. Adehs. Tapi, tanpa arahan daripada fasilitator, saya cepat-cepat cuba betulkan posisi saya balik. Dah nak sampai ke bawah tuh, saya termasuk pulak antara lubang rekahan batu...lebam kaki dibuatnye...dalam sakit macam tuh, saya sempat pulak bergurau....adehs...

Kumpulan kami adalah kumpulan yang terakhir yang bergerak kembali ke kem. Tapi, seronok jugak bila balik ke kem. Saya sempat berposing ambil beberapa gambar. Huhuhu....saya tak nak lepaskan peluang macam tuh...sempat jugak berbual-bual dengan fasilitator-fasilitator.SERONOK!!!

Sampai-sampai aje kat kem, kami semua da keletihan. Tapi masih jugak belum boleh berehat. Saya dan kawan-kawan satu kumpulan disuruh rehat sekejap, tapi lepastuh, nak mandi lagi. Cikgu Sylvia Cuma berikan kami masa 20 minit aje untuk berkemas sebelum siren dibunyikan. Saya pun, kan jenis yang lambat berkemas, terus catch up my breath sekejap then terus berkemas. Huhuhu...jadi, Puteri-puteri kumpulan kami semuanya lambat untuk makan tengah hari. Takper....cobaan....

Untuk petangnya, kami disuruh buat aktiviti GROUND OBSTACLES mencabar jugak bila buat. Mana taknya, macam-macam helah aje yang Faci2 buat untuk tengok kami marah. Tapi ALHAMDULILLAH, kumpulan kami memang sabar. Ehehehe... Macam-macam aje Faci2 marahkan kami. Huhuhu....kami tetap bersatu!!! Yang seronoknya, usaha Puteri-puteri kumpulan kami dan kumpulan kuning (kami bergabung) untuk selamatkan......tayar. AHAHAH....Mulanya kami memang nak tinggalkan tayar-tayar tuh. Tapi lepas tengok apa yang faci2 buat kat tayar-tayar kumpulan lain, kami cuba fikirkan jalan lain untuk selamatkan tayar tuh. Kami ingat nak bergilir-gilir jaga. Tapi susah pulak sebab halangan yang kami akan hadapi nanti jauh. Penghujung penyelesaiannya, kami bawak aje tayar-tayar tuh ke halangan-halangan yang kami tempuhi. Kena marah pulak oleh faci2. Tapi kami dah nekad! Sebab kami taknak nasib yang sama menimpa kami macam kat kumpulan lain. Kena marah pun, kena marah la. Asalkan ‘harta’ kami selamat. Itu pun nasib baik kami sempat ambil tayar tuh sebelum Cikgu Reduan sempat uraikan tali yang kami ikat. Hehhe...ALHAMDULILLAH, kami berjaya jugak harungi halangan-halanga yang diberikan.

Malam tuh pulak, kami kena buat persembahan berkaitan logo kami dan persembahn yang berkaitan dengan lagu tema kami. Dalam keletihan, berjaya jugak kami buat. Hehehe....walaupun pembentangan logo tuh boleh dikatakan berjaya, tapi disebabkan kami nih tak cukup masa nak bersedia untuk persembahan yang satu lagi tuh, akhirnya persembahan kedua kami tidaklah berjaya mana pun. Hambar aje rasanya.Bila dah nak habiskan slot malam tuh, kami dikejutkan pula dengan pengumuman pemecatan beberapa orang pengawas. Saya memang terkejut habis. Saya ingatkan saya ada dalam senarai tuh. Tapi tak pulak. Saya rasa nak nangis pun ada jugak sebab tak sampai hati nak tengok diorang pergi macam tuh aje. Kami ditanya sama ada sesiapa yang nak bela mereka. Saya angkat tangan untuk bela mereka. Saya rasa macam dah jadi tanggungjawab saya untuk bela adik-adik dan sahabat-sahabat saya.Selepas saya, beberapa orang sahabat lain pun ikut membela jugak. Lepas tuh, mereka pula diberi peluang untuk membela diri mereka sendiri. Saya memang sedih giler. Nak nangis, tapi saya tahankan. Akhirnya, Cikgu bagitau jugak kesalahan mereka...lahir bulan Ogos. Rupa-rupanya itu kejutan untuk kami semua! Kejutan hari jadi pengawas-pengawas itu semua. Terkejut besar kami!hehehe...TAHNIAH buat semua kawan yang sambut hari jadi malam tuh.

Malam tuh, hampir semua kami tak tidur walaupun keletihan. Mana tidaknya, kami nak habiskan malam terakhir kami di kem ALAPONG sebaik-baiknya. Saya pulak, lepak kat dapur kem. Duduk-duduk ngan budak-budak lain. Tapi, akhirnya, saya pulak yang terakhir perempuan yang lepak kat dapur tuh. Saya buatkan la teh. Bila mata dah terlalu berat, saya pulang sorang-sorang ke bilik. Pukul 2 atau 3 pagi babe!!!

31 Ogos 2008 >HARI TERAKHIR<

Pagi nih la pagi yang paling susah nak bukak mata. Ngantuk giler! Usai aje solat Subuh, Cikgu Reduan cakap kami diberi masa untuk pulang ke bilik dan tidur. Hehehe...bila dah ngantuk tuh, tidur dalam telekung aje la. Esther pulak datang kejutkan saya. Rupa-rupanya, mereka dah tunggu kami untuk senaman pagi. Adehs...Lepas senaman pagi, kami semua sarapan sebelum kami berkumpul kat dewan kuliah. Ada taklimat sebelum kami semua bersiap untuk majlis penutupan. Persiapan untuk majlis penutupan tu pulak kami berkerjasama dengan semua. Saya dan beberapa orang rakan ditugaskan untuk menyediakan hadiah dan meyusunnya. Dalam ngantuk-ngantuk pun, kami dapat buat jugak.

Dalam majls penutupan tu, kami berikrar G77, dan ada penyampaian hadiah pulak. Kumpulan kami memang tak dapat hadiah banyak mana pun. Tapi kami dapat hadiah pemenang keseluruhan sebab markah kami yang terbanyak! Eeehe... Sebelum mengakhiri majlis penutupan tu, kami tonton imbasan semula aktiviti yang kami lakukan sepanjang kem. Serononya!!!!hehehe...

Saya ingatkan kami belum balik lagi. Jadi saya belum kemaskan barang-barang. Bila dapat tau, baru saya mintak kebenaran untuk kemas. Sebelum pulang, kami semua mintak maaf dan berterima kasih kepada semua cikgu yang telah bersusah payah untuk kami sepanjang kem tuh.

Kem Kepimpinan Pengawas SMK St. Thomas ditutup dengan rasminya pada pukul 1.00 tengah hari. Perjalanan pulang kami, ehehe...kebanyakan peserta semuanya terlentok tidur sehingga kami sampai ke perkarangan sekolah kami kembali.

RINDUNYA KAT KEM ALAPONG...

TERIMA KASIH BUAT SEMUA CIKGU YANG BERSUSAH-PAYAH MENYEMPURNYAKAN PROGRAM KAMI.

PASTINYA SEMUA YANG TELAH KAMI PELAJARI SEPANJANG KEM AKAN KAMI MANFAATKAN DAN AKAN TETAP TERPAHAT DALAM HATI KAMI.

2008-10-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

YA ALLAH, susah betul saya nak bukak page nih untuk update blog saya. COBAAN2...

29 Ogos 2008 >HARI PERTAMA<

Pagi tuh, saya bersemangat la jugak. Hari hujan lebat giler.Sabo je lah...jadi, dalam bersiap-siap nak berangkat ke sekolah >dengan beg beso due< style="">

First time datang kat situ. Okay jugak larh first impression nyer. Lepas nyanyian lagu negaraku >Ivan ngan Sze Kai naikan bendera<>

Habis-habis semuanya, kami ingat nak balik ke kem masing-masing. Tapi fasilitator cakap nak bagi kami ujian pulak. Katanya, kalau kami lulus ujian tuh, puteri >pelajar perempuan<>

30 Ogos 2008 >HARI KEDUA<

“Tak payah mandi. Kami mandi waktu aktiviti tu nanti...” dengan selambanya....adehs...

31 Ogos 2008 >HARI TERAKHIR<

RINDUNYA KAT KEM ALAPONG...

TERIMA KASIH BUAT SEMUA CIKGU YANG BERSUSAH-PAYAH MENYEMPURNYAKAN PROGRAM KAMI.

PASTINYA SEMUA YANG TELAH KAMI PELAJARI SEPANJANG KEM AKAN KAMI MANFAATKAN DAN AKAN TETAP TERPAHAT DALAM HATI KAMI.

GOING FOR A CAMP...

2008-08-29T01:11:00.002+08:00

huhuu...oh my Allah, it has been a very very VERY long time since i updated this so-not-that-ancient blog!been busy lately.no days ended without a headache...eehe...anyway, i'm actually supposed to sleep by now bcoz i'm going to Allapong Camp, Lundu tomorrow for the 2008 Prefects' Camp.we'll be leaving around 8 o'clock.but i should turn up early though coz...just bcoz...ehe...

my one week so-called holiday ended just like that. i'm still as tired as i was BEFORE the school break. too many thoughts, i think. it tires me down. i felt as though i carry a tonne of burden on my bare shoulders and i just couldn't help it anymore.but hey, this s what life's all about. sometimes, you trial and error, sometimes you asks too much, sometimes you know too much, you kept quiet, sometimes you're loud, you feel happy, sad...all sorts of emotions, you felt as though you can't get pass through this and that, but eventually, you became stronger and immune to it.

tired bcoz of school?
you've bet. but it's how i knew it would be. hectic and a lot of work. a lot of time and a lot of efforts. but if you really focus on your goal, you're a star!my teachers always told the class that if we didn't start to work hard now, we'll regret of even stepping into f6.hehe...so, i need...i mean NEED to work hard for it.

for weeks i've been busy with my new duty...as a prefect. ehehe...i'll be signing in always around 6.55-7.00 a.m., that i mean, ALMOST late.really2 saved by seconds. start my duty walking around the school, patrolling and supervising my OP's (ordinary prefects) as weel as their SSPs and SPs (super senior prefects and senior prefects) it's quite ok.but i know it'll get better once i am used to it though. recess period, i patrolled as well. going here and there. keeping myself busy with my duty. ehehe...eventhough my new school was supposed to be a single-sex school, and for me being a very small girl >short<, i didn't feel that bad at all.i might even have fun here! eheh..

well, i'd better hit the sack now, it's already about 2 a.m. and i was supposed to get enough sleep for tomrrow. it'll be a quite long journey. so, wish me luck and safe journey tpwards and back.

chiaox!

(^_^) NIH SEPATUTNYA POSTED WAKTU UJIAN DULU HAHAHAHA.... (^_O)

2008-07-26T22:19:00.004+08:00

IMPIAN KASIH

2008-07-26T22:01:00.001+08:00

Kasih dengarlah hatiku berbicara
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HIKMAH BERTUDUNG... INGATAN BAGI YANG TIDAK MENGERTI

2008-07-26T20:26:00.008+08:00

Moga kisah yang dipaparkan oleh seorang saudara dari Indonesia ini,

dapat dijadikan iktibar khususnya buat kaum hawa..



KISAH BENAR



Saya ingin bercerita mengenai kisah adik saya, nur annisa,
seoranggadis yang baru menginjak dewasa tetapi agak kasar dan
suka berkelakuan seperti lelaki. Ketika usianya mencecah 17 tahun,
perkembangan tingkah lakunya benar-benar membimbangkan ibu.



Dia sering membawa teman-teman lelakinya pulang ke rumah.
Situasi ini menyebabkan ibu tidak senang tambahan pula ibu merupakan guru
al_Quran. Bagi mengelakkan pergaulan yang terlalu bebas,
ibu telah meminta adik memakai tudung. Permintaan ibu itu
ditolaknya sehingga seringkali berlaku pertengkaran-pertengkaran
kecil antara mereka.

Pernah pada suatu masa, adik berkata dengan suara yang agak keras,
"cuba mama tengok, jiran-jiran kita pun ada yang anaknya pakai tudung,
tapi perangainya sama je macam orang yang tak pakai tudung.
Sampai kawan-kawan ani kat sekolah, yang pakai tudung pun selalu
keluar dating dengan boyfriend diorang, pegang-pegang tangan.
Ani ni, walaupun tak pakai tudung, tak pernah buat macam tu!"



Ibu hanya mampu mengelus mendengar kata-kata adik.
Kadang kala saya terlihat ibu menangis di akhir  malam.
Dalam qiamullailnya, terdengar lirik doanya
" YaAllah, kenalkan annisa dengan hukumMu".



Pada satu hari ada jiran yang baru pindah berhampiran rumah kami.
Sebuah keluarga yang mempunyai enam orang anak yang masih kecil.
Suaminya bernama Abu khoiri, (nama sebenarnya siapa,
tak dapat  dipastikan).Saya mengenalinya sewaktu di masjid.
Setelah beberapa lama mereka tinggal berhampiran rumah kami,
timbul  desas desus mengenai isteri

Abu Khoiri yang tidak pernah keluar rumah, hingga ada yang menggelarnya
si buta, bisu dan tuli.Perkara ini telah sampai ke pengetahuan adik.
Dia bertanya kepada saya, "abang, betul ke orang yang baru pindah itu,
isterinya buta,
bisu dan tuli?"



Lalu saya menjawab sambil lewa, "kalau nak tau sangat,
pergi rumah mereka, tanya sendiri".Rupa-rupanya adik
mengambil serius kata-kata saya dan
benar-benar pergi ke rumah Abu Khoiri. Sekembalinya dari
rumah mereka,saya melihat perubahan yang
benar-benar mendadak berlaku pada  
wajah adik. Wajahnya yang tak pernah muram atau
lesu menjadi pucat lesi......
entah apa yang dah berlaku?



Namun, selang dua hari kemudian, dia minta
ibu buatkan tudung. Tudung yang labuh. Adik pakai baju
labuh...... lengan panjang pula tu...saya sendiri jadi bingung..
bingung campur syukur kepada Allah SWT
kerana saya melihat perubahan yang ajaib..ya, saya katakan ajaib
kerana dia berubah seratus peratus! Tiada lagi anak-anak muda
atau teman-teman wanitanya yang datang ke rumah hanya untuk
bercakap perkara-perkara yang tidak tentu arah...

Saya lihat, dia banyak merenung, banyak baca majalah Islam
(biasanya dia suka beli majalah hiburan), dan saya lihat ibadahnya
pun melebihi saya  sendiri..tak ketinggalan tahajudnya,
baca Qur'annya, solat sunatnya..dan yang lebih menakjubkan lagi,
bila kawan-kawan saya datang, dia menundukkan pandangan..
Segala puji bagi Engkau wahai Allah, jerit hati saya..
Tidak lama kemudian, saya mendapat panggilan untuk bekerja
di Kalimantan,kerja di satu perusahaan minyak CALTEX.
Dua bulan saya bekerja di sana, saya mendapat khabar
bahawa adik sakit tenat hingga ibu memanggil
saya pulang ke rumah ( rumah saya di Madiun).

Dalam perjalanan, saya tak henti-henti berdoa kepada
Allah SWT agar adik diberi kesembuhan, hanya itu yang mampu
saya usahakan. Ketika saya sampai di rumah..didepan pintu
sudah ramai orang..hati berdebar-debar, tak dapat ditahan.....
saya berlari masuk ke dalam  rumah..
saya lihat ibu menangis. Saya segera menghampiri ibu lantas
memeluknya........dalam esak tangisnya ibu memberitahu,

"Dhi, adik boleh mengucapkan kalimat Syahadah diakhir hidupnya"
air mata ini tak dapat ditahan lagi... Setelah selesai upacara
pengkebumian dan lain-lainnya, saya masuk ke bilik adik.
Saya lihat di atas mejanya terletak sebuah diari. Diari yang
selalu adik tulis. Diari tempat adik menghabiskan waktunya
sebelum tidur semasa hayatnya. Kemudian diari itu saya
buka sehelai demi sehelai...hingga sampai pada satu halaman
yang menguak misteri dan pertanyaan yang selalu timbul di hati
ini..Perubahan yang terjadi ketika adik baru pulang  dari rumah
Abu  Khoiri..di situ tertera soaljawab antara adik dan
isteri jiran kami itu.  Butirannya seperti ini:

Soaljawab (saya lihat di lembaran itu terdapat banyak bekas airmata)



 Annisa : aku hairan,wajah wanita ini cerah dan

 bersinar seperti bidadari

 "mak cik.. wajah mak cik sangat muda dan cantik"



 Isteri jiranku : Alhamdulillah ..sesungguhnya

kecantikan itu datang

 dari lubuk hati



 Annisa : tapi mak cik kan dah ada anak enam ..tapi

 masih kelihatan

 cantik



 Isteri jiranku : Subhanallah..sesungguhnya

 keindahan itu milik Allah

SWT. Dan bila Allah SWT berkehendak..siapakah yang

 boleh menolaknya?



 Annisa : Mak Cik..selama ini ibu saya selalu

 menyuruh saya memakai

 tudung..tapi saya selalu menolak kerana saya rasa

 tak a da masalah kalau

 saya tak pakai tudung asalkan saya berkelakuan

 baik.

 Saya tengok, banyak wanita yang pakai tudung tapi

 kelakuannya melebihi

 kami yang tak pakai..sampaikan saya tak pernah rasa

 nak pakai tudung..

 pendapat mak cik bagaimana?



 Isteri jiranku : annisa, sesungguhnya Allah SWT

 menjadikan seluruh

 tubuh wanita ini perhiasan dari hujung rambut hingga

 hujung kaki, segala

 sesuatu dari tubuh kita yang terlihat oleh bukan

 muhrim kita semuanya

 akan dipertanggung jawabkan dihadapan Allah SWT

 nanti, tudung adalah

perlindungan untuk wanita ..



Annisa : tapi yang saya tengok, banyak wanita

 bertudung yang

 kelakuannya

tak elok..



 Isteri jiranku : Tudung hanyalah kain , tapi

 hakikat atau makna

 disebalik tudung itu sendiri yang harus kita fahami

 Annisa : apakah hakikat tudung ?



 Isteri jiranku : Hakikat tudung adalah

 perlindungan zahir batin,

 lindungi mata kamu dari memandang lelaki yang bukan

 muhrim kamu,

 lindungi lidah kamu dari mengumpat orang dan

 bercakap perkara yang sia

 sia ..sentiasalah lazimi lidah dengan zikir kepada

 Allah SWT, lindungi

 telinga kamu dari mendengar perkara yang mengundang

 mudharat baik untuk

 dirimu mahupun masyarakat , lindungi hidungmu dari

 mencium segala yang

 berbau busuk, lindungi tangan-tangan kamu dari

 berbuat sesuatu yang tidak

 senonoh, lindungi kaki kamu dari melangkah menuju

 maksiat,

lindungi fikiran kamu dari berfikir perkara yang

 mengundang syaitan untuk

 memperdayai nafsu kamu, lindungi hati kamu dari

 sesuatu selain Allah SWT,

 bila kamu sudah biasa, maka tudung yang kamu pakai

 akan menyinari hati

 kamu..

 tulah hakikat tudung



 Annisa : mak cik, sekarang saya sudah jelas

 tentang erti tudung...

 mudah mudahan saya mampu pakai tudung. Tapi, macam

 mana saya nak buat

 semua tu?



Isteri jiranku : Duhai nisa, bila kamu memakai  tudung,
itulah kurniaan  dan rahmat yang datang dari
Allah SWT yang Maha Pemberi Rahmat , bila  kamu
mensyukuri rahmat itu,kamu akan diberi  kekuatan untuk  
melaksanakan amalan-amalan 'tudung' hingga mencapai
kesempurnaan yang diinginkan Allah  SWT.
Duhai nisa ..ingatlah akan satu hari di mana seluruh manusia
akan  dibangkitkan ketika ditiup sangkakala yang kedua,
pada saat roh-roh manusia seperti anai-anai yang bertebaran
dan dikumpulkan dalam satu padang yang tiada batas,
yang tanahnya dari logam  yang panas, tiada
rumput mahupun tumbuhan , ketika tujuh matahari didekatkan
di atas kepala  kita namun keadaan gelap gelita,
ketika seluruh  manusia ketakutan,
ketika ibu tidak mempedulikan anaknya ,
anak tidak  mempedulikan ibunya,
sanak-saudara tidak kenal
satu sama lain lagi, antara satu sama lain boleh menjadi musuh
lantaran satu kebaikan lebih   berharga dari segala sesuatu yang
ada di alam ini,  ketika manusia   berbaris dengan barisan
yang panjang dan masing-masing hanya  mempedulikan
nasib dirinya, dan pada saat itu ada  yang berpeluh kerana
rasa takut yang luar biasa hingga tenggelam
dirinya akibat peluh yang  banyak, dan bermacam macam
rupa-rupa bentuk manusia  yang tergantung   amalannya,
ada yang melihat ketika hidupnya namun buta ketika dibangkitkan,
ada yang berbentuk
seperti haiwan,  ada yang berbentuk  seperti syaitan, semuanya
menangis..menangis kerana hari itu Allah SWT  murka..  
belum pernah Allah SWT murka sebelum dan sesudah  hari itu.
Hingga ribuan tahun manusia dibiarkan Allah SWT di padang
mahsyar yang  panas membara hinggalah
sampai ke Timbangan Mizan.  Hari itulah dipanggil hari Hisab..
Duhai Annisa,bila kita tidak  berusaha untuk beramal pada hari ini,
entah dengan  apa nanti kita akan  menjawab
bila kita di tanya oleh Yang Maha Perkasa, Yang Maha Besar ,
Yang Maha  Kuat , Yang Maha Agung.. . . . Allah SWT .



 Sampai di sini sahaja kisah itu saya baca kerana

 di sini tulisannya

 terhenti dan saya lihat banyak titisan airmata yang

 jatuh dari pelupuk

 matanya.. Subhanallah .Saya selak halaman berikutnya

 dan saya lihat

 tertera tulisan kecil dibawah tulisan itu "buta ,

 tuli dan bisu.. wanita

 yang tidak pernah melihat lelaki selain muhrimnya

 , wanita yang tidak

 pernah mahu mendengar perkara yang dapat mengundang

 murka Allah SWT ,

 wanita tidak pernah berbicara ghibah dan segala

 sesuatu yang mengundang

 dosa dan sia sia"



 Tak tahan airmata ini pun jatuh.semoga Allah SWT

 menerima adikku

 disisinya..Amin



 Subhanallah ..saya harap cerita ini boleh menjadi

 iktibar bagi kita

 semua. Wassalam...

HUHUHU.....LAMA NYER!!!

2008-07-26T20:15:00.004+08:00

ekk-owe!! hehehe...wah! lamanya tak update blog nih!!! hukhue...rindu jugak aku.hurm...neways, nih aku nak updatekan selagi aku sempat dan mampu nih....hope sumernya okeys yerh!!!perkembangan diri aku sendiri nih nanti2 je lah aku updatekan...harharhar...okies...enjoyz!!!

KU BERLARI -FIRDAUS-

2008-05-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

Firdaus:
Ku langkahkan kaki ini
Di hangat mentari pagi
Ku syukuri hari ini, aku masih berdiri

Dan aku tinggalkan masa kelabu
Dan lalu mulakan jalannya kerna-Mu

Semangat optimis diri jalan hari dengan pasti
Selama jantung berdetak, selama itupun

Takkan berhenti berlari wujudkan mimpi
Terus berlari agar hidup ini bererti

Terjatuh bangkit aku kembali
Susah payah aku tak peduli
Kerna hidup hanya sekali

Akbar:
Dengarkanlah teman seloka hiburan
Tak perlulah kita asyik nak berlawan
Kita semua kawan tak boleh berlawan
Kalau kita renggang kita ketinggalan

Bebaskan dirimu dari dibelenggu
Teruskan langkahmu ayuh kita maju
Mari bersamaku nyanyi lagu ini
Jangan difikirkan resah yang di hati

Semua itu hanya dimindamu
Tak perlu kau sangsi tak perlu kau ragu
Segala-galanya pastikan berlalu
Mentari kan muncul mendung kan berlalu

Cat Farish:
Suka duka perkara biasa
Kita pasti lalu bezanya pada waktu
Bila berlari kenalah berstrategi
Jangan ikut hati, ikut hati nanti mati
Biarlah terlambat atur jalan cermat
Pelan-pelan kayuh jgn sampai otak penat
Sentiasa bawa diri hati-hati hari-hari beri erti pada diri
Jangan berhenti kejar mimpi senyuman diberi tanpa semua benci menghantui hati
Biarkan saja, takdir semua nyata
Bersyukurlah masih lagi bernyawa

Firdaus:
Dan aku tinggalkan masa kelabu
Takkan berhenti berlari wujudkan mimpi
Terus berlari agar hidup ini bererti

Takkan berhenti
Berlari wujudkan mimpi
Terus berlari
Agar hidup ini bererti

Takkan berhenti berlari wujudkan mimpi…
Berlari..

saya akan tetap berusaha berlari menuju ke destinasi yang saya idam-idamkan...
LILLAHI TA'ALA

LOWER 6 SCIENCE 1

2008-05-15T20:50:00.006+08:00

UIT!!ehe...erk...smenjak masuk f6 nih makin sibuk pulak...ehe..so, here goes on whtever that had happened during the last few days in school...

SELASA

hari nih kami masih lagi ada taklimat sana sini. pagi tuh kami ada taklimat berkenaan matapelajaran subjek sains kat dewan utama. taklimat-taklimat berkenaan matapelajaran Matematik T, Biologi, Kimia dan Fizik semuanya diberikan oleh guru-guru atau ketua panitia masing-masing. lepas rehat kami dah tau kelas kami...saya masuk kelas L6S1. fuuuuyyyooooooooohhh!!!

hari nih belum belajar lagi. memandangkan taklimat bagi pelajar aliran sastera belum selesai, jadi kami semua diarahkan membuat kerja amal. sapu sini sana, kemas sini sana. selepas rehat, kami kembali ke dewan utama untuk taklimat berkenaan disiplin disusuli dengan taklimat kokurikulum. selepas tuh ada pulak ceramah perkembangan diri.

petangnya, kami semua dibawa 'explore' kawasan sekolah bersama-sama beberapa orang pengawas dalam kumpulan masing-masing. ehehe...seronok jugak...ehe...

RABU

hari nih kami ke sekolah berpakaian kasual untuk aktiviti gotong-royong. kami dibahagikan mengikut kumpulan dan diberikan tugas tertentu untuk diuruskan. kumpulan saya diberikan tugas mencabut pokok bunga berhampiran dengan pagar sekolah. sekejap je...sebab tak banyak n kami ramai. ada yang cabut pokok bunga, ada yang buang pokok bunga ke tempat pembakaran. ehehehe...

selesai tuh, saya ke kelas. nak tengok mana kelas and nak ambil tempat duduk. datang-datang je dah tak ada tempat duduk hadapan.so, i ended up duduk kat blakang sekali.huh...sedih!!!! nasib kawan saya tak kisah saya duduk dengan dia n kawan dia...huh...dahla sorang2....hukhue...sabar aje larh...takpe...ALLAH bersama-sama ngan orang yang sabar...

I WILL SURVIVE!!!!

KHAMIS

hari nih kami mula belajar...awal pagi dua masa pertama kami belajar PENGAJIAN AM. selepas tuh, MUET.selepas rehat kami mula belajar KIMIA...seronok jugak sebab cikgu tu tau macam mana nak hilangkan ngantuk. lepas tuh kami belajar MATEMATIK T. ehehe....so far, cikgu hari nih fun...n hope kekal fun nanti.

mood: hukhue...these few days i'm kindda sensitive larh...tak boleh kasar sikit da terasa...hukhue...

DEALOVA = ONCE =

2008-05-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah
Dalam tidurmu
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu
Yang mungkin bisa kau rindu

Karena langkah merapuh
Tanpa dirimu
Oh… Karena hati tlah letih

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu
Yang slalu bisa kau sentuh
Aku ingin kau tahu bahwa aku
Selalu memujamu

Tanpamu sepinya waktu
Merantai hati
Oh… Bayangmu seakan-akan

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang
Memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada

Oh…

Hanya dirimu
Yang bisa membuatku tenang
Tanpa dirimu
Aku merasa hilang… dan sepi
Dan sepi…

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang
Memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada

Selalu ada…
Kau selalu ada…
Selalu ada…
Kau selalu ada…

Sya… na na na…

p/s: rindukan dier.....hurm.....

FIRST TIME THOMIAN!ehehehe....

2008-05-12T22:05:00.004+08:00

HEAR! HEAR! ehhehe...hari nih hari pertama saya daftar masuk tingkatan 6 rendah. saya dapat aliran sains. nak tau sekolah mana? ehehehe...

saya ditawarkan utk meneruskan pelajaran ke tingkatan 6 rendah di SMK ST.THOMAS...which actually secara automatiknya jadikan saya THOMIAN...ehehe...dulu MARIANS waktu bersekolah di ST.MARY, then tukar ke KOLEJ DPAH ABDILLAH, jadi KOLEJIAN...skarang nih kat ST.THOMAS jadi THOMIAN pulak...hehehe....

anyways, my first day tak la teruk sangat.ok jugak sebab banyak kwan lama dari ST.MARY ada sekali.then ada pulak budak2 kolej sama...hari nih ada jumpa dua kawan baru asal memang ST. THOMAS. tapi diorung aliran sastera...ehehehe..nice and friendly. suker!!

hari nih banyak taklimat.tapi kitorung ada buat kenal2 ckit larh dalam kumpulan kecil jadi ok...ehehe..then ada lagi taklimat.eehe....tapi semuanya ok je...balik pun dalam 12.30 tgh hari camtuh...kira ok larh tuh...nice meeting cikgu sylvia ngan cikg rahim.ehee...first day dah pegang mikrofon...I SUKER!!!eheee....

anyways, esok masih lagi dalam minggu orientasi....ehee...nanti i add banyak lagi..ehehe...

da...

p/s: i still jadi MARIAN n KOLEJIAN!!!i missed KOLEJ da!!!!!

Spice Girls - Mama

2008-05-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

She used to be my only enemy and never let me free,
Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,
Every other day I crossed the line,
I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you would
Become the friend I never had

Back then I didn't know why,
Why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend

I didn't want to hear it then but
I'm not ashamed to say it now,
Every little thing you said and did was right for me,
I had a lot of time to think about,
About the way I used to be,
Never had a sense of my responsibility.

Back then I didn't know why,
Why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
All that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend, My friend

But now I'm sure I know why,
Why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
All I can give you is love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend

Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
You're my friend
(Repeat to fade)

MAMA...I LOVE YOU...

2008-05-11T00:36:00.004+08:00

Ah…..sekarang nih da masuk hari AHAD da…11 Mei 2008. orang sambut hari ibu hari nih kan??ehhehhe…sebenarnya, saya tak sambut sangat mother’s day nih…saya kebeyh suka sambut hari ulang tahun mama n ayah sebab hari ulang tahun mereka sama bulan ngan hari ibu ngan hari bapa….when I said ulang tahun tuh, makna nyer, hari jadi larr…eehehe…

Anyways, kepada semua ibu yang ada kat luar sana, tak kira larh ibu mana pun ~~(ibu ayam masuk ker??definisikan secara mendalam dlu…)~~ saya nak ucapkan…

Selamat Hari Ibu

Sayang mama! Ratu hatiku….

IBU, terima kasih atas segala-galanya yang telah engkau lakukan,

Kau teristimewa...

Sentiasa teristimewa...

bad day...

2008-05-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

Insya-ALLAH i'll be registering for Form 6 at SMK St.Thomas this Monday. I don't really know, to be frank, whether I am ready for another school thinggie. Probably I'm just too used of too much relaxing. hehehehe...surely dad will miss me larh...nobody to jalan-jalan wif...kahkahkah...sowie dad....ehe.

Even though I'm registering for from 6, I'll still be waiting for my UPU appeal for UIAM. just hope that I'll have a chance on that. looking forward larh what's going on next.

Reminder: Don't eat when you don't feel like it. Even when you haven't even touch food for the whole day. It makes you SICK!!

What was that all about?? Well, this morning (Saturday) mom, dad n myself went to Aunt M's house for dress fitting....(btol ka??) she's one of the family trusted tailor...ekekeke...anyways, then we went back downtown. after dropping her somewhere at Gambier Street, we went straight for lunch...well, in MY case, it's my breakfast. I don't know but i felt kindda full by the time. so no mood for 'feast'. But considering that i haven't taken anything that morning, so i ordered. half way eating i started to regret that i ordered. i felt so full already. so in the end, i stopped eating and just leave. My stomach doesn't feel right. the food felt as though they had difficulties passing my oesophagus and even quite painful when it reached my stomach. so...what happen next?? i felt like throwing up and alas, i fell asleep (again!!!) for the whole afternoon back at home. huh!! pity coz they're yummy food I'd say!

so guys, don't force yourself...it happened to me twice this week. one which was when i drank the 'kaw' Americano coffee...which i am sad to say even though i quite like it...i felt 'drunk' in some kind of way. my head felt like some thing's banging inside. plus, i took it with some spicy meal...not good!!!

SAYANG AWAK...RINDU AWAK...

2008-05-10T01:56:00.001+08:00

"Saat kamu berkata untuk meninggalkannya,

Mungkin dia akan pergi meninggalkanmu sesaat,

Memberimu waktu untuk menenangkan dirimu sendiri,

Tetapi pada saat saat itu, hatinya tidak akan pernah meninggalkanmu

Dan sewaktu dia jauh darimu, dia akan selalu mendoakanmu dengan air mata.”

i really hope yang nih betul....

sorry... :'(

2008-05-10T00:07:00.001+08:00

Hidup ni memang susah nak diramal.bukannya susah, memang tak dapat diramal pun.sepanjang perjalanan hidup kita, banyak yang kita tempuhi. lebih kesulitan berbanding kesenangan. teori saya, kita sentiasa rasa bahagia sebab setiap kali kita berada dalam kesulitan, kita sentiasa ingat tentang kebahagiaan yang kita pernah kecapi. teori bodoh, tapi saya tahu bagaimana rasanya.

mulanya rasa nak tlis aje post kali nih, tapi hilang 'selera' pulak nak teruskan...tak apa la....munkin post yang terakhir sebelum saya kembali ke 'dunia' saya yang lebih membahagiakan.

ada teori baru, dalam hidup ni, jangan selalu ikut apa cadangan orang lain, lebih baik ikut kata hati dan rasional. sorry i've deleted the recent post yang saya put up. but it doesn't feel right. even masa nak buat dulu pun sama jugak. tapi, motif saya dah tercapai, so, let it be.

i dunno why, tapi saya nih sentiasa macam budak jahat aje...biasa larh..nyakitkan atie aje kenal ngan saya nih...besa la kan...nak buat cam na...i'll always be like this, sorry guys, i'm not gonna change into another type of person.

to tell you the truth, there's a reason why i had never confess of how i felt. because i was so scared that i might hurt your feelings. and day by day, that fear made me felt like a total hypocrite. more pathetic as i think about it. i was too scared that i might hurt your feelings that i forgot that i have mine to look after. i read books that tells the stories of great friendship. frankly talking, even though it might sounds weird or insane as it was, i actually envied them. i often asks myself why can't i be like that? but unfortunately, i never had the answer.

i knew that we're so much different and apart, that's why i just said let it be. i never want to discuss it because i feared the discussion leads to another endless crisis between us. that's why i kept it all along. i understand that you want privacy, so i let it be. i don't want to be another intruder in your life.

i remembered the night we had sleepover together, we promised that even after school, we will be best friends forever. i truly believe that we can be that. but all of the sudden, i don't anymore. not because i don't believe in it, i just felt as though it may have just slipped away. i cried every time i thought of it. i feared that we'll lose each other, no more best friends, no more sisters. you guys will meet someone else that's better than i am and have them as your best friend but left me behind, just another forgotten memory. thus, I'll be back to square one, alone...all by myself.

i cared so much that i just couldn't help myself to check on you guys every now and then. login just to check your blogs for newest news, of chat through YM. it's a complete relief whenever you guys replied and actually chat with me instead of just to say hi and then disappeared. i knew you hated sms-ing, so i didn't. i don't want to call you coz i thought you might be busy with your own stuff. so in the end, i knew nothing. and that breeds loneliness.

before i met you guys, i never had best friends. i was always a loner. nobody cares about me. i am always on my own. they despise me. when i started form 1, a former classmate told you that she hates me. it's the first time i've ever heard someone hated. i feared that it might happen to us someday that you'll hate me for who i am. the always annoying, loud and overprotected...nosy( sometimes) girl as i am. that, breeds paranoia.

i reckon you never saw me really cried. but i saw you guys cried before. it always appeared that i'm a strong person outside. someone that wouldn't care, who wouldn't want to know, but i was always the same as you guys. i cried my heart out every time i thought about our friendship. about how i feared that you'll forget that i ever existed in your life. it was so true that we needn't shared ALL stories to each other...yes, there are things that were best kept untold. i don't need you guys to tell me every single details that happened, i just want to know if you're okay. i am a pushy person, i know...believe me, i know...but i have my own sense. when i realize i've crossed the boundary, i'll stop and get back to the other side. i never said how i really felt because i don't want to discuss about it. it's personal.

you asks me what's up with the last long post? honey, don't you remember i love writing long posts? it's how i am. it doesn't matter big or small issues, i ALWAYS wrote long and winding posts. even when i am chatting i sent long sentences.

you asks me why do i sound so sad when we discussed about it? it's because i am sad. these few weeks aren't the best week i've been going through. i don't even felt right. because I AM SAD. nothing else...period.

it might not be settled for me, but i don't want you guys to discuss it. so just let it be. sorry for not being that great of friend for you guys, but i'm doing my best. even up til now, i am still searching the definition of best friend coz i never understand really how best friends are supposed to be. sorry, in the previous post i didn't mean that you guys were bad...it's just how longing i felt. it's up to you to judge. i don't even care. but let it be for me. it's enough for you to just know how i felt.

sincerely sorry. to tell you the truth, you guys were probably the best buddies i've ever met. but i don't know on which path are we. the best friends or just friends. sorry guys, i just gave up on thinking about it. sorry.

love always from me...
izsie

WELCOME TO MY LIFE ~ SIMPLE PLAN~

2008-05-08T02:50:00.001+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Aok bA,...KamEk LaRh yA....

2008-04-20T00:33:00.003+08:00

adehs...sori gilak2 mek dah lamak sik update blog tok...since mek sikda mood nak klaka bahasa KL, o omputeh, mek klaka jak lam bahasa ibunda kesayangan mek tok...bahasa s'wak...ok??

lamak giler tok ehs...mek da sik ingat da apa nak dimasok lam tok..sbenarnya banyak benda mek nak tulis lam tok...p mek mala lupak...mun sik lupak mek gago ngadap skrin chatting..sikda keja len kmk time cuti tok...

apapun, bagus mek start ngan hari result kuar, kayh?

SPM RESULT...*dush**dush*

so, suma orang gago ngan SPM result cdak ari ya tek..i mean, Rabu (12.03.08).mek nang larh takut giler...sebab orang mala pikey mek tok pandey gilakkah nak dapat A...ingat senang ka??mek sikda larh sepandey yang dipikey o disangka...p tq juak la...sebab cdak sikda pikey mek bodo giler!anyways, tok result mek...boh tetak larh...

B.M., B.I., Pen. Islam, E.S.T., Tasawwur Islam =A1
Mat. Moden = A2 (nang unsangkarable!!!!spatutnya A1!!!!!)
Sejarah = B3 (cgek gik yang adehs....spatutnya sejarah A1!!!!!)
Fizik = B4 (ingatkan bleh dapat A2 tek...kan bagus gik!!)
Biologi, Mat. Tambahan = C5 (biologi sepatutnya mek ingat dapat la B4 tek....adehs...bukan rezeki da jak...)
Kimia, Prin. Akaun = C6...tok lagik larh kismis mena..kimia...mesti kes paper 3 mek salah ya...

so, overall, sebenarnya mek sik puas hati gilak ngan result mek...mek jangkakan mek dapat B k suma subjek sains....sekurang-kurangnya la C5 pakey matematik tambahan ngan akaun. p, dah sekda rezeki nak molah apa nak? so, kinek tok berdoa yg terbaik jak la...

CUTIE...CUTIE....APA NAK JADI???

time cute tok nang mek habiskan ngan berseorangan larh.maksud mek, kmk lebih banyak luangkan masa sendirian. yang lebeyh mengejutkan, mek suka!! ahhahha...keja mek mun sik makan, tgk tv, tido, jalani kewajipan, jalan ngan mak ngan bapak, ya pun jalan ke ceko jak yg salu. yang paling mek suka semestinya gurin atas katil n main game mek...muehehehehe...

salunya mek nunggu jak orang ngantar mesej...p sikda juak orang ngantar....adehs...rasa ketinggalan jak ehs...rasa cam orang da lupak ngan kita tok....ya la rasa sedeyh nya....

TUMPANG TANYA, ADA ORANG RINDU KMK SIK???

bunyi kedak ngarap ada jak...ahahaha....sebenarnya mek saja jak nak tanyak....ya la, lamak sik nemu kengkawan...sik tauk larh mun kawan2 ya maseyh ingat ngan kita nak....kita tok ajak yang mala rindunya.apa nak molah?

kinek tok rasa cam sik rapat ngan kawan2 lagik ehs..walaupun kawan2 yang boleh dianggap best friend. ya nang jauh mena larh. susah mok dengar brita...apa?ktk orang ngelak daripada kmk ka??mun mok ngelak pun padah mena2 owh!! jadi mek kinek tok nang sunyik larh....rindu ngan geng2 suma...yang ada salu juak berkontek ngan kmk nggak Pqah ngan Zu ajak...n ok larh..chadi yg mala ngembak tgk wayang ya....adehs....

apa nak jadi??orang pergi jalan2 mun cdak bercerita cney2 ka, mesti bestiesnya sikda termasuk kmk...so, mun ktk orang ada kawan karib larh ktk orang gelarnya tek nak, mun nya g cney2 dah ya enjoy2 tapi cdak sikda mention ktk orang pun atau kelak cdak padah besties cdak tetiba nama ktk orang sikda...giney rasa??? nyaman ka sik?? rasa kenak lupak jak nak??? macam kita tok sik penting...o mmg cdak udah anggap kita tok mmg pun SIK PENTING?!!?!?!

whatever!!!!!!!!!!

NANG SIK PENTING!!!

nangga AF ajak2 kerja mek...sikda kerja lain..tangga, berik komen, err..kakya sambung makan o men game...o lebeyh baik, tido....AHAHAHHAHA!!!!

TENTANG SESEORANG

tentang seseorang....ada kawan mek tanyak..apa sebenarnya mek rasa, mun mok tauk nak, mek sebenarnya ehs...mmg sik tauk pa sebenarnya jadi...o apa mek rasa, o apa nya rasa kat kmk...so, tunggu jak la...

bulak mun mek kata mek sik rindu o sik sayang nya...mek rindu n sayangnya gilak2.p mun sikda jodoh, tetap sikda jodoh....aite??kelak2 la mek crita mena2....mun mek sempat...

MATRIKULASI......IYER KE?????!!!!!

ahahahahah!!!mek sik kenak!!!!

adehs, mek spatutnya rasa sedeyh (MEMANGPUN MEK SEDEYH!!!) p mek kenak juak tunggu yang lain. doa ajakla....hurm...maka sikda D kenak sikpat??adakah sebab subjek sains mek?????

ok larh...mek rasa bagus mek tido dolok....kelak2 mek update lagik kayh...tunggu mek ada mood lok...k, mek mupok lok arh...esok mok kemas rumah, ada kelas petangnya...ehehhee..cikgu sementara tek nak....ahhahhahhahhahha.....